Archive for March, 2005

boring week

Saturday, March 26th, 2005

i’ve gotten used to my temporary job and i admit that i’m going to miss it when it’s over. mostly i will miss all the free time which i spend watching tv or reading my books. too bad the salary is really low otherwise i’ll consider working there longer.

it’s holy week here so there’s no work and commercial establishments are closed. it’s very boring but relaxing at the same time. i was invited to go out of town but i didn’t feel like travelling so i opted to spend the week at home. didn’t do anything productive at all except install a new LAN card for this computer because the built-in one was being shitty. i got the net working again so i’m pretty pleased with that.

i really should work on the design of this site since i have a lot of free time this week. but i’m not sure how i will design the site. i already made some graphics but i’m not so sure if it would work. and working on the site with this computer isn’t that ideal. i wish i have a mac.

Back to the Dark Ages

Thursday, March 17th, 2005

I read on the newspaper today that the Catholic Church of the Philippines seeks to ban from taking communion those who work and who are in support of ‘Ligtas Buntis’, a family planning program led by the Department of Health(DOH). I was raised as a Catholic but lost faith in their church but this issue still irks me because firstly, I am a woman, and secondly, it’s beginning to reek like the tribulations during the dark ages.

I don’t know why they are making a really big deal about using contraception. The world isn’t a safe place anymore what with the spread of STD’s such as the AIDS virus. Also, most of the people who have a lot of children are those below the poverty line and obviously can’t support raising many kids. It’s not as if the DOH is espousing premarital sex. They are urging the use of contraception to married couples so they will become educated and can have the option of living within their means. Let’s face it, people have hormones and most of the time, couples cannot just abstain from having sex. I’ve encountered women from the squatters area who bear children every year. The women are left to take care of the kids while the husbands look for a job wherever he can and they get to take home barely the minimum wage. We shouldn’t be also blind to the reality that a lot of Filipino women have roving eyes and resort to sex outside their marriage. Who knows what else he might bring home besides his daily earnings?

As for the sexually active citizens, they are the ones who are more in need of protection. They are the ones who are more prone to STD’s and unwanted pregnancies. These unwanted pregnancies also result to abortion most of the time. Since abortion isn’t supported by the Church and the government, pregnant girls have to settle with underground, unsanitary, and unsafe clinics due to desparation. If the Church doesn’t want women getting abortion, they should give them another option besides abstinence, a Utopian idea in my opinion. It would be a real miracle if the Catholic Church would come up with a way to surely control the sexual urges of the youth.

The DOH isn’t promoting abortion. It is promoting sexual education and the option to use contraceptives. By banning supporters of the ‘Ligtas Buntis’ campaign from having communion, they are turning their backs to basic human rights. Why don’t they just condemn supporters such as me as ‘excommunicated’ like the Church did during the Medieval times? It certainly feels the same way to me. I’m better off than my Catholic brothers and sisters because my conscience is clear. They, on the other hand, are being taught to feel guilty for seeking an option.

PSP

Tuesday, March 8th, 2005

i’m excited about the release of Sony’s PSP. it’s an answer to my tech prayers! it has a camera, an mp3 player, games, and it can play movies! i can only imagine the potentials of that gadget. i’ve been pining for an ipod but now that the PSP will be released soon, i don’t want to get one anymore. i wonder how much the gadget would cost…

a pretty blah day

Monday, March 7th, 2005

second day at work. it was bearable. the other editor was very late but i guess it was fine since the producers didn’t have anything for us to do. i just spent most of the time there reading the second hand book i bought, “Girls Guide to Hunting and Fishing”. the book is okay, good enough for killing time at the network. i snuck out at 4:30 though. i have an appointment with my personal trainer. he he he.

work out was okay. i was late cos of the terrible traffic so i only had 1 hour of training. i hung out there for 30 minutes after the training cos i wanted to rest and sneak glances at that cute guy who works there. it sounds pathetic and it IS pathetic but what else can i do? i don’t want to talk to the guy even if i think he likes me too. i’m done with being aggressive. i don’t want to be the pursuer anymore. i did a lot of that in the past and it got me nowhere! so i’ll just hope that he strikes up a conversation with me while i am still alive.

i am trying to come up with a design for my wordpress. they’re called ‘themes’ now, not ’skins’. i tried to do one for the strayhorn version but it didn’t work. i don’t mind cos the design sucks anyway. i don’t have much time for this though. maybe after i finish working for the network.

conscious and subconscious

Friday, March 4th, 2005

this has been a very very very tiring day. fuck! i was once again reminded why i left that fucking work. the work itself is good but the people in the company aren’t the best people to be around with if i want to have a healthy self esteem, maintain a higher than average IQ, and the will to continue living. god! i will be so glad when this is over but as i’ve said, i really need the extra money. but i still want to strangle some of the people there. i don’t want to discuss this anymore. at least in this entry.

i want to go to the Labyrinth of Jareth Fantasy Masquerade but it is impossible because 1) i wouldn’t have anything appropriate to wear, 2) the ticket is expensive, 3) i would feel out of place since i don’t know anyone who’s going, 4) i am not in LA, and 5) i am not even in the US. it looks really interesting though. i love the film Labyrinth and I absolutely love Jareth that I even want to develop my psychic ability just to see if there is really a goblin king. i bet that masquerade would feel so magical. i am envious of everyone who’s going!

fear the networks

Friday, March 4th, 2005

i hate working for the networks. i told myself i would never work for either ABS-CBN or GMA but, starting tomorrow, i’m back. i need the extra money and it’s only temporary. like, for just a month. but i am starting to feel the old dread again. i can feel it in my stomach and my chest. i haven’t felt that for a long time and i didn’t expect to feel it again at least this soon. i may have committed myself to jumping off a cliff by taking the job. mother is happy about it though. she thinks this is a good thing for me. she believes that editing is my most fulfilling job. i wish she were right but the most fulfilling job i’ve ever had was when i worked as a PA for a no-budget straight-to-video film called ‘Intermedio’. i loved it because it was an eye-opener. a glimpse into how Hollywood works. Very unlike the shitty Philippine cinema we have here. I didn’t even get paid for that gig because i was supposed to be an intern or something. I want to work in Hollywood again but I’m back in the Philippines. And I don’t have enough experience to compete with the other Hollywood hopefuls. US indie films would be nice too actually but I don’t think indie productions hire non US citizens.

I’ve digressed and I’m a bit keyed up on sleeping pills. Please excuse me.