bury me in this dress

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Without Measure
Special ISA Day 2005 Issue
www.withoutmeasure.com/special

The International Size Acceptance Association (ISAA) is pleased to announce that a special mini-issue of Without Measure, ISAA’s Official electronic magazine, is now online! The issue’s theme is tied to this year’s International Size Acceptance Day and ISAA’s new “Drop The Surgery, Regain Your Health” campaign.

Special features this issue include an interview with plus-size actress Darlene Cates (”What’s Eating Gilbert Grape,” “Wolf Girl”), the meaning of International Size Acceptance Day, WLS survivor perspectives, special words of wisdom and more! Please check this out right now and feel free to give WOM your feedback.

Without Measure
Special ISA Day 2005 Issue
www.withoutmeasure.com/special

Best Wishes,
Allen Steadham

Allen Steadham, Director
International Size Acceptance Association
E-mail - Director@size-acceptance.org
WWW - www.size-acceptance.org

I am quite upset right now. The reason is shallow but I am a brat. Me and my sister wanted to go to a really nice beach this summer and I suggested to mom that we should all go to El Nido since I’ve been there before and it was a fantastic experience. She told me to ask around how much it would cost her so I contacted El Nido and they gave me a good quote for residents. Mom found it too expensive so she told me to research some other resort in Palawan. I did that too but she still found it expensive. She told me to research on Thai beaches instead. At first I wasn’t in the mood to do that since I don’t know if the beaches there could compare to El Nido. I spent a lot of time online and began to fall in love with the resorts in Koh Samui especially Rocky Resort. My sister was really excited too after seeing the websites of the resorts. We made a presentation to mom the other night and she liked what she saw. She told me to do more research especially on the airfares and how we can get to Koh Samui. I told her the results yesterday afternoon. Me and sis were feeling really high because we thought this would be a sure thing but when mom got home, she said the trip is too expensive. It would have been better if there is a direct flight from Manila to Koh Samui (there isn’t. We have to enter through Bangkok first) but since there isn’t, the Thailand trip is off. I’m just really disappointed about this because I was already imagining myself cavorting in the Koh Samui white sands and having the time of my life. I wish she didn’t tell me to research on this. Now I have to try to get the trip out of my mind and it is just so difficult especially since I am stuck in the insane Philippine summer heat.

My hair is okay now. There’s still a few breakage when I brush but it’s not as worse off as before. The salon gave me a treatment yesterday and it really did wonders. I bought a bottle of the treatment so I can continue it at home. The other downside to this hair disaster is that the color isn’t as striking as before. I don’t know if it faded because of the treatment or the dye isn’t that good to begin with but what’s supposed to be purple is now blue. Weird.

I had another disaster tonight. My family and some relatives had dinner at Club Filipino. The food was okay but I got really sick after. I ended up with the nasty runs and vomited all that I ate. I think I just got disgusted with the water there because to me it tasted funny (although the people I was with didn’t think so at all). I’m quite sensitive when it comes to water. But then again, there might be something bad in the food. Ugh. I just don’t want to go back there again even if they have the yummiest Kare Kare in the country.

I’m freaking out! I went to the salon last night to have a haircut but decided to have it dyed on impulse. I’ve been wanting to have my hair colored for a long time now so I got into it last night since I was already there. I wanted some purple streaks done but my hair needs bleaching first since it’s brunette and the color wouldn’t be seen without bleach. The purple color was perfect but now my hair breaks so easily! I couldn’t even brush!!! The dyed strands are so weak that I don’t even want to touch my hair. The situation makes me want to cry and I’ve lost interest in everything. I don’t even want to read a book because I am just so worried. I’ll go back to the same salon tomorrow and demand that they do something about my hair but I am still worried that they wouldn’t be able to fix this. Waaaaaaaaaaah!!!

Got this link from Boing Boing. I love the films of Wes Anderson, especially The Royal Tenenbaums. So yes, I am envious of this people who played dress up based on the characters of Anderson’s films. I want to do this too but I don’t think my friends are into this. Boo!

I just finished reading The Da Vinci Code and I can honestly say that it blew my mind away. It’s a book which is hard to put down and it really makes the readers think, question the establishment, and raise awareness of the struggles in Christianity. I was raised as a Catholic so at an early age, I was made to believe that the Bible is the truth, that Jesus wasn’t entirely human, that the Church couldn’t harm a fly. But I learned to ask questions about the religion a long time ago and there were just a lot of aspects in it that doesn’t make sense. Ever since then, I considered myself pagan and chose to worship the Goddess. The Da Vinci Code made me aware that there are secret societies who worship the Goddess form and are there to pass on and protect the knowledge from generation to generation. I became aware that there are controversies concerning the true holiness of Jesus Christ (him never being married, etc.). I also became more aware of how ugly the Church can really get. But what I find strange is that the book made me admire Jesus. Although I don’t worship him or anything, the book threw him in a different, more human life. The book even said Jesus was a real feminist and that’s really something.

The version I read wasn’t the illustrated one so I’m searching the net for photos of Leonardo Da Vinci’s works. I find him intriguing now after learning about his flambouyant and genius past. If you want more resources on the book, there are a lot on the net.

from ISAA

ISAA’s Without Measure (WOM) e-zine is interested in people’s personal stories of Respect Fitness Health (RFH). In other words, people who have chosen to be size-accepting and self-respecting, have increased their fitness through some maintainable activity that is appropriate for them, and decided to make healthy food choices (to diversify their food choices from a variety of fruits, vegetables and meats or protein sources).

WOM will select from your stories for use in a special “International Size Acceptance Day” (ISA Day) mini-issue of WOM. ISA Day is on April 26, 2005.

Please limit your stories to 200 words or less and include at least your first name, your city, state and country. The deadline for sending in stories is Tuesday April 19, 2005, so please send them in as soon as possible.

Please e-mail your stories to: womeasure@size-acceptance.org

WOM reserves the right to edit all stories for spelling, grammar and brevity.

Thank you in advance for your help.

Sincerely,
Allen Steadham

Allen Steadham, Director
International Size Acceptance Association
E-mail - Director@size-acceptance.org
WWW - www.size-acceptance.org

I just finished watching “Maalaala Mo Kaya? (Do You Remember?)” on ABS-CBN and in tonight’s episode, they featured the life of Cecile Inigo who’s better known as Dabyana. I didn’t know much about the famous actress known for her big size. All I knew is that she was a fodder for fat jokes. After watching the episode, I realized her life was so colorful and rich. She was gutsy and went after her dreams, she was courted by an Italian count, and eventually found her true love in her own homeland. Most of all, she was never ashamed of her size even if she was often ridiculed. I have to commend ABS-CBN for featuring such a story especially during these times when Philippine media makes fun of fat people. Dabyana should serve as a role model for overweight Filipinos.

i hate to admit this but sometimes i miss this certain friend of mine. i won’t mention her name here because i want to protect our privacy but we’ve been friends since high school but the friendship ended three years ago. we used to be really close, like talk on the phone every night close. i just miss the long talks about guys, other people, etc. i also miss her because we have (had?) so much in common. i tried to salvage our friendship twice but thinking about it now, i wasn’t really sincere then. i just wanted all the gossip and annoyance to stop. maybe that’s why the “reconcillation” didn’t work. but now i want to be friends with her again. i really do. i miss the countless good times. but i don’t really know how to approach her and i don’t think she wants me as a friend anymore. she has a new life, new set of friends, and i don’t fit in that picture. it’s such a shame.

I just read this article in engadget about Philadelphia wanting to put a city-wide WiFi access and I can’t help but feel envious. I don’t have anything capable of WiFi but I just want that option. Imagine, you can be anywhere in the city and you can connect to the net anytime you want, even from inside the bathroom. And the city wants the WiFi access to be cheap so that means the locals don’t have to pay huge sums of money to ISPs anymore. LUCKY!