Whine
I’m not feeling so well. I mean emotionally. I don’t know why. I just know that I need some cheering up. Ugh. That sounds pathetic. I really am trying to lift my mood. I look for ways to amuse myself but that’s just not enough. I’ve also lost interest in things. Like watching doramas for instance or reading books. There’s still this huge void inside me and I don’t think it can be fixed. I miss cutting myself because I miss the rush and release it gives me. But I don’t want to start self mutilating myself again because that might lead to suicide ideation. I just want this to stop.
