bury me in this dress

I’m feeling much better. Much much better. And I haven’t even seen my therapist yet. Hopefully I won’t feel rotten again after a day or two, like what happened this past 2 weeks when I posted that I’m feeling okay.

My friend came over yesterday afternoon because she was seeking a lot of advice. Good thing she didn’t come earlier when I was a total wreck. She has never seen that side of me and I think she would have freaked out. I mean, I was literally shaking and looked totally lost. It was that bad. It’s a bit disappointing that I can’t find emotional support from other close friends. But I guess that’s how life really is. A lot of people avoid signs of fragility, trouble, weakness, or whatever then they make light of the situation and then I become insulted. I mean, man, these are heavy feelings. It’s no laughing matter for me. And then some friends of mine just laugh and brush it away. No wonder I tend to avoid some people in my little social circle. Bah this post is too revealing. Time to shut up.