bury me in this dress

The previous post was too dramatic. Well I just woke up then and was feeling very irritable. I’m sorta okay now. At least now I’ve talked to my friend and he said the party needs to be rescheduled. So, whatever. At least I didn’t buy any booze yet. And now I can follow my other friends to Greenbelt. The schedule was to meed at 7 PM but knowing them, they’ll show up at 9 so I told them to just SMS or call me when they’re all together.

And now, the reason why I am in mourning. You-know-who still hasn’t mailed me. Oh the agony of waiting and waiting! But being the closet optimist that I am, my new Irish friend told me that they also have a long weekend because of All Soul’s Day. So maybe, just maybe, when HE said “weekend” it meant the long weekend. In any case, I’ll give him a week. Depending on how I’m feeling on the day of the deadline, I might mail him a nice reminder or a bitchy note. The Goddess whispered to me not to hurry things up because great love takes time. She’s right, I know, but waiting just to see if there is indeed a spark is pure torture.

Clothe me in mourning garb because that’s what I’m feeling!

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I’ve read only 8 out of this list. Those are the ff:
1. Are You There God, It’s Me, Margaret by Judy Blume
2. The Catcher in the Rye by JD Salinger
3. Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov
4. Lord of the Flies by William Golding
5. 1984 by George Orwell
6. One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest by Ken Kesey
7. The Prime of Miss Jean Brodie by Muriel Spark
8. To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee

And I used to think that I am an avid reader.

I want this for my everyday wear!

Maybe not everyday wear but nights out wear.

This one is for formal wear.

And this for Halloween, a Corpse Bride costume.

Dammit! My friend still isn’t online so we haven’t finalized the “party” for tonight. The last time we talked, he already invited some people but I was in a hurry to go so I didn’t ask him how many will be coming. He said he’ll tell me the details through YM. If I get really pissed off and hear nothing from him, I’m calling the thing off…except I don’t know how to do that since I don’t have his other number. Argh.

It’s been a pretty bad day. Mostly due to my impatience. This means that you-know-who hasn’t emailed me yet. I consoled myself with my Amelie DVD. I love that film. *sigh* Then I watched Angela but it turns out that I’ve seen it before. It sucked then, sucks up to now. Maybe I’ll be in a mood for another DVD. I want to feel better and not sulk around…possibly waiting for nothing. Good Goddess! It hasn’t even started and I’m having problems already. My friend and her boyfriend told me to give the guy a week. If still no reply, I should mail him a short message. That’s their suggestion. I was thinking of yes, give the guy a week, then try to start things with “the other guy” whom I haven’t messaged yet because I’m hoping that things will work out between you-know-who.

My sister bought a cute fairy costume last Friday for a party tonight. The costume is actually for kids but since she’s stick thin, it fits her. Anyway, I love the fairy wings! I want one too but they don’t have that for adults. Bleh. I deserve fairy wings! I would use it a lot and go around ordinary places dressed as a cute fairy. I guess I’ll have to make one for myself. Shyeah right. I’m too lazy to do that. But I think wings are easy to make.

I wanted to do my sister’s make-up for her party but she changed her mind. Dammit! I was looking forward to it and I have the right glitter make-up already. I could make her look fabulous but I saw what she did to her face and it’s so ordinary. She wasted a perfectly good costume in my opinion. Her friends didn’t even come up with good costumes. I’m upset because I love costume parties and playing dress up. It’s just so fun and you can be as creative as you want. They should have seen the great clothes people wore in last night’s Elysium Night. It might inspire them. Now I’m thinking of having a theme for the get-together here on the 31st. I want to do a “Tarts and Vicar” theme (so very Bridget Jones of me) but it’s too late to spread around the word. I haven’t even talked to my friend about the event so I’m still clueless as to how many people are coming. But if ever the theme can be done, I can’t wait to dress up as a prostitute. I’m sure the people coming are game since they love to dress up too.

Haven’t heard from you-know-who. My friend told me that the letter I wrote him isn’t dorky at all and she thinks that he’s smitten with me based on his reply. I disagree however. I think smitten is too much. I just think he’s kinda interested. But it would be much better if my friend is true. Hehe. I think communicating with him will be a bit difficult. I don’t think he goes online often so it would take days just to email back and forth. (Goddess, give me patience with this guy. Guide me to not become too demanding and overbearing.) But so far, so good. At least everything looks positive.

I couldn’t resist not trying this.

I think my blog is worth more than that. Definitely. I’m the fucking best :P

Just got back from Elysium night. I thought it was going to be at Saguijo but good thing my friend told me last night that it would held in Absinth. I went alone but I was comfortable. Then I got to meet some new people so that’s good. I didn’t finish the whole event because I was starting to feel ill. I think there was only 1 band left anyway. But I have a headache right now. My eyes also hurt because of the smoke in the place. I just hope I don’t get sick again because I have a lot of work to do plus I’ll be throwing a get-together on the 31st. Speaking of which, I think it’s getting out of control. It was my friend’s idea and I just offered my place but I told him to invite only a few people, like 10 to 15 since my place isn’t big. I also told him that I would only buy them booze so if they want to eat, they should bring their own. Well, I think he invited more than 15 already plus I also invited some of my other friends. I just hope the people wouldn’t make trouble for me and wouldn’t trash my house! I should also throw in a warning that there should be no making out or sex in my room!

A funny thing happened while I was leaving for Absinth. I fell down the stairs here! Jeez. Good thing I didn’t twist any body parts but that’s what I get for wearing 3-inch platform boots. My butt hurt at first but I think I’m okay now. I have a lot of padding for protection.

I almost forgot. I messaged you-know-who and I was such a dork. I was nervous the whole time I was writing it so the message ended up sounding nerdy. But I got a reply from him! A really positive reply and now I know what his name is!

Good Goddess! It looks like a password protect machine passed by this blog. I even deleted some posts. But it’s no use if you google and look at the cached pages. Argh.

Still too scared to write to you-know-who. *Bites lower lip* Gaah

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is it! I’m finally a premium member of bbwsinglesfinder. Methinks it’s time to password protect those obsessive postings. Ack. Now I am nervous! What to write to them?!