bury me in this dress

This is bad bad bad baaaaad. I’m feeling miserable again but it’s not because of stomach flu (BTW, I think it’s gone now). It’s because of you-know-who and the fact that I am in denial that HE IS JUST NOT INTO ME! Fuck! I really need to avoid band boys like they’re a plague. Which they are in a way. Worse than the black plague!

Coin Operated Boy
by The Dresden Dolls

coin operated boy
sitting on the shelf he is just a toy
but i turn him on and he comes to life
automatic joy
that is why i want a coin operated boy

made of plastic and elastic
he is rugged and long-lasting
who could ever ever ask for more
love without complications galore
many shapes and weights to choose from
i will never leave my bedroom
i will never cry at night again
wrap my arms around him and pretend….

coin operated boy
all the other real ones that i destroy
cannot hold a candle to my new boy and i’ll
never let him go and i’ll never be alone
not with my coin operated boy……

this bridge was written to make you feel smittener
with my sad picture of girl getting bitterer
can you extract me from my plastic fantasy
i didnt think so but im still convinceable
will you persist even after i bet you
a billion dollars that i’ll never love you
will you persist even after i kiss you
goodbye for the last time
will you keep on trying to prove it?
i’m dying to lose it…
i want it
i want you
i want a coin operated boy.

and if i had a star to wish on
for my life i cant imagine
any flesh and blood could be his match
i can even take him in the bath

coin operated boy
he may not be real experienced with girls
but i know he feels like a boy should feel
isnt that the point that is why i want a
coin operated boy
with his pretty coin operated voice
saying that he loves me that hes thinking of me
straight and to the point
that is why i want
a coin operated boy.

Yeah, I need a coin-operated boy. Anybody there knows one?

I went out tonight with Jenny and Eric. It was okay. Just gabbing all night until CBTL closed. Jenny treated me and of course, I couldn’t resist freebies. Mostly we talked about the last ad congress in Cebu. She was sent there and she said it was pretty neat. PDI hosted a raffle and they gave away trips to other countries as prizes. Hearing her describe the ad congress made me want to work for an ad agency just so I can go to next year’s congress. I want those prizes.

Had car troubles when I was leaving the place. My car wouldn’t start so good thing there was I saw a driver nearby. Also had to ask Jenny and Eric’s help to jump start the car. Grrr. I think the spark plug is busted. Or the battery got drained. This means I might not be able to go out tomorrow.

I made another impulse buy today. Well, not really impulse since I’ve been eyeing it last Saturday at Hobbes. But it’s ridiculously expensive and a bit useless. So anyway, I bought myself a Stuart Houghton Initial Mini Seal because it’s lovely. I guess this means I will now reply to some penpals I haven’t replied to since February. If anybody’s looking for a penpal, reply here with your address. I want to show off my initial seal.

mine looks like this except for the initial of course

I’m kinda pissed off right now. I checked to see if you-know-who read my message already and he did but still nothing from him. I mean, hey lad, you told me about your digestive tract problem so don’t keep me hanging. Jeez. I’m getting tired of this situation but he’s there (sorta) to divert my attention from someone else. Someone I’m trying hard not to get fixated on. No. Never again.