bury me in this dress

I will be away for a few days. In the meantime, click on my blog renter ;)

Oooh I discovered a great blog. It’s owned by Carlos Celdran, the guy who became famous for conducting special tours of Manila. I have yet to take that said tour but anyhoooo, his blog is awesome. He writes so well. My guage for this is my short attention span. Carlos writes a lot of long posts and I surprise myself that I always finish reading them. His blog is at celdrantours.blogspot.com/

One of the things I learned from his blog is that David Byrne is in the Philippines. I became a fan of Talking Heads for awhile so I have great respect for this guy. Carlos posted this last December 17 but since he said that Byrne is here to research more on Imelda Marcos, I think he’ll be in the country for awhile. I’ll be on the lookout for him but I doubt if I’ll be able to recognize him now that he’s old.

Another post I enjoyed is his review of Kitty Go’s books, namely “When Chic Hits the Fan” and “Chic Happens”. I’ve read both and although it wasn’t well written, I don’t think anyone bought those books for other merits besides knowing the dirt on the so-called uppercrusts of Manila society. I’m a sucker for celebrity dirty linen, be it Hollywood gossip or good old Manila’s so I found Kitty Go’s books highly entertaining. It’s really a guessing game although I’m not too knowledgeable as to the who’s who of Manila’s “elite”. I’ll compile another list of PEX members’ guesses of who’s the real person behind the nicknames, like what I did for her first book.

I’ll be visiting Carlos’ blog regularly from now on. He just gained himself a fan.

This is the list I made early this year. Uhhh unfortunately, I broke a lot of them.

1. Lose some weight - I did for awhile then gained it back this season
2. Exercise more - broken
3. Pull myself together - In a way, I did
4. Be more ‘out there’ - I think I made progress with this one
5. Find my passion - Still lacking
6. Help mom more - broken!
7. Design clothes - hardly accomplished
8. Learn how to sew - Another broken one
9. Be a bit more positive - Successful with this one
10. Take care of skin - Hmmm. Not too sure about this.
11. Not to overspend - Hello!
12. Buy new shoes - Stupid resolution this one. But yeah, I just bought new shoes
13. Find religion again - I did for awhile then lost interest in the end
14. Be supportive of friends - Kinda good
15. Develop psychic abilities - Not at all.
16. Save money - Yeah right.

Just a warning before anybody reads the entire entry, this will be a whiny post. You have been warned.

I was just trying to take a nap because I only had 6 hours of sleep. I NEED at least 8 hours otherwise my brain doesn’t function too well or I get cranky or whatever. Really unpleasant. Well I couldn’t seem to sleep because all sorts of thoughts keep on running through this brain. One of them is the suhweeeet dream I had last night which made me question my sexuality again. In my dream, I fell in love with this dreamy looking butchy lesbian. She kinda reminds me of you-know-who now that I think about it. But the one in my dream is a girl. And she’s really into me too. And we had a relationship but I had another lesbian lover before her. Weird dream but I like it. It wasn’t sexual or anything. More on true lovey lovey stuff. I’m just wondering why lesbians were involved and now I’m starting to think that I’m becoming a lesbian too. Honestly, if I see her in person and she’s into me, I would go into a relationship with her without thinking twice about it. Too bad it was just a dream.

So that’s one of the thoughts. Another is how I am hating how I ballooned this season. Like I said before, I’m comfortable with my weight usually but this is too much. It just doesn’t feel right and I’m getting clumsier and bump into things. Ugh. Fuck. So anyways, I gained an enormous appetite so I decided to try an appetite suppresant this morning but now my heart is beating faster than normal and I guess the pills also contributed to the trouble of sleeping. But I hate the way I look right now and I will refuse to be post any photographs of how I look right now, which is shit. I need to lose weight cos what’s the point of going broke over lingerie and that nice dress I bought on ebay when I will look terrible wearing them. No fucking way. I was planning on wearing that dress this New Year’s Eve but uh I don’t think so anymore. It would be good if I have huge boobs but I don’t. I think it’s unfair to have small boobs and be plus sized. How come other big women have big boobs and not me? So now my stomach juts out. If I had big boobs, my stomach wouldn’t look so prominent.

Another bother is my financial problems. I spend like I’m nouveau riche and I’m not. Not even close to being one. And now I’m envying my sister’s new Shu Uemura eyelash curler and I’m thinking I need to have one as well. I couldn’t afford it but I still feel like I need it because I tried it and it works great. Damn money. And I want other stuff too like that Radiance colored contact lenses. I don’t need it but it’s so pretty. I also want to buy more toys and accessories for the cats. My nails too. I am badly in need of a manicure. I was planning to get one today but the salon I go to for manicures is fully booked. Bleh. I can’t get one tomorrow or the next day cos my family will be checking into Shangrila Makati for the New Year so yeah, I think I need to have my nails done today. Right now even cos I have plans for tonight and it would need time to dry.

I told you this would be whiny post. I know I sound like a real spoiled brat. I am. Kinda. Except I’m broke and I don’t always get what I want.

Ugh. I feel really awful about spending too much in one day. This is really bad. I’m spending beyond my means. I should earn more money or spend less. Earning more money sounds easier though. How to go about it, that’s a different matter.

Besides feeling awful, I know I have become a very boring person. Yet I keep on posting here eventhough nothing interesting happens to me. Pathetic. Grrr. So I will end this entry now because it’s totally pointless. While I try to have a more interesting life, click on my blog renter. Her life is more interesting than mine right now.

I must have slept for 14 hours last night. Anyway, to continue how I spent (no pun intended) my yesterday.

After leaving the optical shop…let me fast forward a bit. It’s just too boring.

I went to a craft store to buy more threads for my tatting. While there, I remembered that I wanted to learn how to do parchment craft so I impulsively got the starter kit and had lessons then and there. Parchment craft is cool imo. I like it a lot but the tools are expensive. Who cares?! They’re really pretty. Okay, here’s a sample I saw online.

Nice, isn’t it? My first parchment work sucks but I’ll keep on practicing to perfect it. I bought a step-by-step book and gold ink. The total for all was more than 2,700 pesos. Eek I know. I was in that store for almost 2 hours.

After that, I had a bit of lunch then went to have a facial. It was so-so but it was cheap. Cost me only 350 pesos. I was tempted to have my nails done, have a massage, etc etc but good thing I didn’t. More useless spending that would mean.

I think after this I went to Olympic Village to look for trainers. I ended up buying this particular Chucks.

My very first Chucks for P2,650. I’ve been eyeing this one for ages but never got around to buy it. I know I really needed trainers but I couldn’t find a nice one which fits me right. I went to other shoe stores but no luck. Well there were a few but I didn’t want to buy trainers which costs 4000 bucks. I’m thinking of using the Chuck Taylor I bought for gym. It’s not the right shoes but I don’t exert too much efford when working out anymore. I just hope the exercises wouldn’t ruin the shoe.

I left the mall after that. This was a bit after 4 PM so I spent around 6 hours there. Ugh. And I easily burned P5,000 P7,000 plus, most of which I charged to my credit cards so I’m not looking forward to the next billings.

When I got home, I was delighted to see that my other garter belt has arrived. I also received the Donnie Darko DVD Justin gave me. Yay! I haven’t watched it yet but I’m planning to tonight if I don’t go out. I shouldn’t go out. Going out will lead me to spending again and I really really have a serious impulse buying problem.

Gawd! Still haven’t slept since the 26th. Why? Cos I’m addicted to Sims 2 that’s why. Enough about that. I’ll prolly post more about Sims 2 on another date. Now I will devote the remaining post as to how I spent the entire (exaggeration of course) day at the mall.

I’ve been delaying my visit to Robinson’s Galleria (for those who are not in the Philippines, it’s a mall in Ortigas) because of my usual laziness. I have a lot of errands to do there but I have the Christmas crowd. So this morning, I decided to just go ahead. I figured there wouldn’t be a lot of shoppers anymore since it’s after Christmas already. The mall opens at 10 am and I got there at 10:30.

First stop was Sabater Optical. I wanted to have my eyeglasses cleaned thoroughly so I left the glasses with them. The girl told me to come back for it around 1 PM. I also needed contact lens solution but the store doesn’t carry the brank I like.

I passed by a Nike store and remembered that my trainers’ soles are coming off so I need to get a new pair. I went inside the store and found a really nice trainers but it didn’t fit me right since my feet are fat. Too bad.

So I left the place then went to a Japanese store to buy me a much needed facial wash. All the Japanese people I encounter have perfect skin so I thought that they’re beauty products must be good. But then again, I’m just rationalizing because I am perfectly aware that they have a different diet compared to Westernized people…but I really wanted a Japanese facial cleanser. I was looking for something which lathers. Most of the cleansers there have skin whitening effects which I don’t think I need. I also don’t need skin tightening nor collagen infused (?) ones so I settled for the ordinary kind. Of course I couldn’t understand the writings on the product I chose but the shop assistants assured me that it lathers. If it doesn’t, at least I like the scent of it. While I’m there, I also bought a toner because it was on sale. Japanese products are too damn expensive. Those two products cost me a little less than a thousand pesos.

Next stop was Dorothy Perkins. I saw a gorgeous skirt on their website and wanted to check if the Philippine stores have it too.

Unfortunately, the Philippine stores don’t have it. Baaah. I hope they will soon even if it’s a season late.

I went to another optical shop and they do carry the brand I always use. It set me back almost 200 pesos though. Then I saw that they have a special offer for colored contacts. I’ve been wanting to get Soft Focus’ radiance lenses in silver for months now and it’s included in the buy2 get 3 promo. I was so tempted to buy but I wanted to see how it would look on me first. Unfortunately (or fortunately?), the store’s trial lens was returned to the distributer because they expired. They’re expecting new ones next week.

Arghhhh I can hardly keep my eyes open. Will continute this later.

Miss Ann Thrope is my new blog renter. She’s angsty and whines a lot. Sounds like my own blog. Hehe. Anyway, go click on her site. It’s really interesting.

Now on to me…

I went to Tiendesitas with mom again. I really like it there. I was able to buy 3 knock-off Anna Sui shirts, 2 nice shirts for the maids, a Nightmare Before Christmas mousepad, and a toy and pet brush for Vyolette. I spent a little less than 2000 pesos. Damn.

My day was uneventful because I spent most of it sleeping. Nice. I better put “waking up in the morning” in my New Year’s resolution. I really have a lot of nasty habits to kick.

It’s Christmas right now in my country. I like this time of the year because you can smell consumerism in the air. Seriously, I honestly like getting presents or money. I’m very materialistic.

Last night on Christmas Eve, my relations and my family spent it in my aunt’s house in Greenhills. We often spend the eve there because they have a huge house. This year’s get-together lacked something I couldn’t point my finger to. Perhaps it’s the underlying reality in our minds that my beloved uncle’s family will be migrating to the US next year so last night was their last eve in the Philippines. Or maybe because the youngest among us is only 16 when years ago, my cousins and I were kids and had great expectations for Christmas. In any case, I still had fun because cousin Paul was around. He’s really a funny guy. Normally I’m quite boring during family gatherings but when Paul is there, I instantly transform and become funny too. I don’t know how and why that happens.

I didn’t receive many presents. I got a bag, a book on how to paint fairies, and some pearl jewelries from my Aunty Monette; a gift set of Body Shop toiletries from Uncle Freddy and Aunty Au; 2,000 Pesos from Aunt Amor; and money plus Rustan’s gift certificates from Uncle Vic. I appreciate all the gifts but I particularly like the book on fairy painting. I never tried painting before but I think I want to try it. It looks hard though.

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I joined the Blogger Secret Santa Program a month ago and today, I received the presents of my secret santa who is now known to me as Euian. Thanks so much for the gifts, Euian. I love them!

Is there something wrong with Yahoo today? I can’t log to my YM nor access my email. I just hope the account wasn’t hacked. Not that there’s anything important in there but it would be a bit hard to recover my friends list.