bury me in this dress

I did some thinking about you-know-who and now I am a bit upset. His email was long and he admitted that he sucks at writing regularly. He noticed that I sounded depressed in the last message I wrote to him…which was dated last Nov. 26 (yeah that long ago). He sounded caring and concerned in his letter and maybe that’s the problem. It would be so easy to ignore him if he’s an asshole but it seems like he isn’t. Or maybe I’m just turning a blind eye. Whatever. The point is, I want to reply and be honest that one of the reasons why I sounded depressed was because of him, that I thought he has forgotten me already, that I’ve given up on him and let him go…but I’m not ready to reply yet. And I don’t want to sound like it’s all his fault because it really isn’t so I have to be in a more cheerful disposition while writing the reply and I really need to choose my words wisely. I don’t know how to go about this and I need some time. For all I know, I’d reply and not hear from him again or it would take ages for him to get back to me and that will make me miserable again.

Oh dear. Just when I was starting to forget about him I received an email from you-know-who. *sighs* I don’t want to deal with this right now. I have some reflection to do about the situation.

Well I woke up early today. 9:30 am even. I guess that means my life is more “normal” now. Although I’m terribly bored so I might get my nails done and take the pets to the animal clinic.

Finally did my xmas shopping yesterday. Went to Tiendesitas with mom and bought gifts for my friends and gifts (lots of gifts) for myself. Also bought a lot of things for the pets. They seem to love their new toys.

I sound so lackluster lately. Something needs to change.