bury me in this dress

I am so bummed out lately. I don’t think this is PMS anymore. The depression is back and ugh. Fuck! I don’t feel like talking to anybody.

I’ve always been interested in paranormal and the occult. Been trying to develop my psychic abilities but I don’t think it’s going anywhere. I often meditate before I go to sleep but more often than not, I end up falling asleep. Anyway, I took this online test.

It looks like I really suck except for precognition. And possibly channeling. Bah. So what is precognition? According to the site “People with this ability, or precogs are traditionally called seers and have the ability to foresee the future. Some may find their abilities enhanced by tools such as tarot cards or crystal balls (scrying) but many simply find that knowledge of what is to come simply presents itself to them in often surprising ways!” I guess that’s good. I already have a tarot which I hardly use so it’s time to dust it off again. As for channeling, “Channellers, or mediums, have the ability to communicate with, or act as conduits for the communication of, non-human intelligences or the spirits of the departed. The Psi Q profile takes a broad assessment of this communication and includes in its assessment forms of communication that may be non-verbal.” I don’t know why I got an 8/10 for this one since I never talked to a spirit or other entity. I can talk to my cats but I don’t think that counts.