I’m feeling so antsy again and frankly it’s getting so hard to deal with things. Somewhere in me, I’m trying hard to get better but sometimes I’m just at a loss. So I just sleep it off and that makes me feel guilty every time. Like I’m no good and a big burden to everyone. I feel so week emotionally and physically. I hate this so much. Make it stop!
My mind is more active now so let me post.
I want to become more spiritual but I believe that what’s holding me back is my lack of guidance and lack of psychic abilities. What I will do now is to seek a special Spirit Guide who will help me with this but the Guide should be strict with me and always remind me when I’m off the path. I’ve been doing some research and hopefully a spirit will answer my call.
I really want to become a better person. I think finding a good guide is the best first step because I know I’m stubborn and lazy.
Prozac Nation by Elizabeth Wurtzel
