Vision or overactive imagination
Sunday, April 2nd, 2006Ugh. I was so upset this morning because I had a really bad feeling that something bad will happen to mother. I immediately consulted my tarot but I found that I couldn’t read. I was just too upset. I tried to calm down to be able to communicate with my Higher Self and she reassured me that everything will be alright and that nothing will go wrong. I wanted to trust her/me (?) but just the same, I told my mother to be careful because I the stupid “vision” (which suddenly came while I was reading “The Mists of Avalon”) and she promptly told me to shut up. I gave up after that although I was still worried. I told Higher Self that I wouldn’t trust her/me again if harm befalls mother. Then when I went to sleep. When I woke up, mother was back and watching the telly. She is perfectly fine. I guess I can still trust the er…Higher Self (I don’t know what else to call it!) but now I don’t know how to distinguish premonition from my stupid imagination. I think I took too much coke. Not the drug. The drink I mean.
