bury me in this dress

Ugh! I keep on getting tagboard spam. I’m getting tired of deleting those annoying messages so I’m thinking of dumping the board. Anyhooo, I’m finally getting a haircut tomorrow afternoon. I might as well get my nails done while I’m at it. Other than these, nothing new with me except that I’m trying to finish that awful book “The Devil Wears Prada”. It’s not really well written but I think the roman a clef about Anna Wintour’s devilish ways is for real. What a horrible woman!

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I so badly want an ibook!

Well I’m finally back. Not that anybody missed my entries but uh…well I’m back. Heh! My aunt treated my family to an executive suite at Edsa Shangri-la for 2 nights. My mom and sister got bored but I loved the stay there. It was really very relaxing and I like the big soft bed. I got to soak in the tub which I always do when we have a hotel room since we don’t have a bath tub at home. The meals were expensive and they weren’t great. Even the buffet at Heat (the hotel restaurant). I didn’t expect that so many families check in at hotels during Holy Week. When we arrived there around 2pm last Friday, it was traffic and mom had to line up for 30 minutes just to check in. Well, at least we got the room for free so that doesn’t really matter. I thought that the hotel offers free internet there but I was mistaken. Not that it would matter because I don’t have a laptop to begin with.

As most of you know, I’m Pagan so I don’t really observe the no-meat tradition. I ate a lot of meat last Friday. I also didn’t go to the Easter mass last Sunday. I just slept in the hotel room. Nice.

Well, I need to check my friends’ blogs now.

I had to wake up early because my sister wanted someone to accompany her to the doctor. So I woke up irritated at 10 am, head breakfast, took a shower, then dressed up. Going outdoors these days is awful because of the terrible heat. I’ve been like a mole for weeks now so the sunlight really did a number to my eyes. It’s still stinging a bit. On the plus side, I saw my old friend Angelo who happens to work in the building I went to. He asked for my number and said he will contact me for freelance graphics work. That’s good, isn’t it? I could certainly use the money and more productivity.

I finished watching Orange Days last night and I can honestly say that it’s a good dorama. Very light, sometimes bittersweet, sometimes funny too.

It stars Satoshi Tsumabuki (of the Waterboys fame) and Kou Shibasaki (the crazy girl in Battle Royale).
Here’s the synopsis according to the TBS site which produced this dorama:

Kai Yuuki (Satoshi Tsumabuki) is in his senior year at university studying social welfare psychology. At present, he is in the middle of job-hunting season. He is finding it difficult with no job offers so far.

One day, he meets a girl who is playing violin in the campus. She is Sae Hagio (Kou Shibasaki). In marked contrast to her beautiful tone and attractive looks, her personality is somewhat impertinent. And to top it off, she communicates through very vulgar sign language.

Four years ago, she lost the most important thing for a violinist - her hearing. As a result Sae closed off her inner self from the outside world.
Kai finds himself on a date with Sae, in place of his best friend. Unexpectedly, he comes into contact with Sae’s private side.
Love, job-hunting, friendship… Setting a campus in spring as a dorama`s backdrop, it’s the start of a glittering youth drama.

One of the reasons why I like this drama is the gentleness of some of the characters like Kai, Akane and Keita in contrast with the more in-your-face personalities of Shohei and Sae. They’re all about to graduate and going out into society is a really big step for them so they try to enjoy the few months they have before the graduation where they will pursue their careers. So one of the subtexts of this dorama is the Japanese working class society where in the adults strictly adhere to corporate rules and decorum because if they don’t, they might risk their jobs.

Another reason why I like Orange Days is because I became more aware of the feelings, fears, and struggles of deaf-mutes. Sae is a deaf-mute but she isn’t born that way. She was a child prodigy for violin and was asked to study at Julliard. While there, she caught a rare disease which damaged her hearing. It was a shock to her and the people who loves her. She is used to being the princecss. She’s very pretty, talented, admired by many and suddenly becoming deaf is a huge blow. She misses her old life, she feels so different from those with normal hearing. She’s angry but doesn’t know whom to blame. When she met Kai and his friends, she slowly learned that there are people who will support her and make her feel a part of their group. And through Kai, she learned how to love and to trust again.

However, this isn’t my favorite dorama. I just really enjoyed watching it.

I’m watching doramas again. I guess that means I’m feeling much better now. Really. I haven’t watched a dorama for months because…I don’t know. I lost interest I guess. But tonight I’m getting hooked on Orange Days.

I just remembered something from my childhood. Back when I was in kindergarten, I guess I was around 6 years old that time, I took the school bus with a bunch of annoying kids. I don’t remember much about them but they’re mostly boys. Anyway, they always teased me about my weight and that just made me so mad all the time. We were still living in our old house and mom had this china cabinet with flatwares. There was a butter knife there and I sneaked it out of the house to threaten the kids to make them stop teasing me. The knife was a bit sharp but still, it’s a butter knife so I doubt it could do much harm but I was a kid then so how could I know any better. I never got to use it even if I wanted to. I don’t think I was going to stab anybody, just threat those nasty kids with physical harm if they don’t stop it. Mom discovered the knife when she was fixing my bag and I got into so much trouble for it. She also told a lot of people about it and I guess that fixed me a bit. Jeez, did I have homical tendencies when I was a kid? Where did that come from? If mom didn’t discover that knife, would I have grown up much worse than I am now? Gad, I’m screwed!

I caught The Truth About Cats and Dogs on telly the other day. It is a good film. I like the fact that Brian (Ben Chaplin) chose Abby (Janeane Garofalo) in the end. This film gives hope to people like me who are smart but not that appealing to men. However, I just felt so bitter the whole time I was watching. I kept on thinking, “that’s never going to happen to me”, “Are you crazy? Janeane Garofalo is hot. I’d chose her over Uma Thurman”, “If I look like Janeane Garofalo, I wouldn’t have any boy problems at all”, etc. I have become such a bitter hag that I cried. I don’t want to be bitter when it comes to love but I had a very rocky past. I think being bitter at this age is inevitable. The only solution to this is meeting a right man. Which reminded me of The Dresden Dolls’ song “Coin-Operated Boy”

“this bridge was written to make you feel smittener
with my sad picture of girl getting bitterer
can you extract me from my plastic fantasy
i didnt think so but im still convinceable”

I dyed my hair blue-black tonight. I’m going to put pink streaks after I get a haircut but that will be weeks from now because I don’t have enough money for the salon. I also finally got my new pair of eyeglasses (which I didn’t pay for of course). It’s okay but I really wanted the purple romeo gigli pair which costs 9,000 pesos. Really expensive for me but it looks great.

…that I was BFF’s with Paris Hilton and Nicole Ritchie. Tres weird! I was chilling with them then invited the two to my cousin’s house in Greenhills. My cousin was thrilled and his male hormones were in overdrive but I didn’t introduce him. Paris, Nicole, and I just watched some telly.

What the fuck does this dream mean?!

Ugh. I was so upset this morning because I had a really bad feeling that something bad will happen to mother. I immediately consulted my tarot but I found that I couldn’t read. I was just too upset. I tried to calm down to be able to communicate with my Higher Self and she reassured me that everything will be alright and that nothing will go wrong. I wanted to trust her/me (?) but just the same, I told my mother to be careful because I the stupid “vision” (which suddenly came while I was reading “The Mists of Avalon”) and she promptly told me to shut up. I gave up after that although I was still worried. I told Higher Self that I wouldn’t trust her/me again if harm befalls mother. Then when I went to sleep. When I woke up, mother was back and watching the telly. She is perfectly fine. I guess I can still trust the er…Higher Self (I don’t know what else to call it!) but now I don’t know how to distinguish premonition from my stupid imagination. I think I took too much coke. Not the drug. The drink I mean.

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