bury me in this dress

Grrr. I’ve always had trouble falling asleep so I don’t understand why my mom got it into her brain that now that she stopped giving me sleeping aid, I will sleep earlier. Hell! Even with pills I still find it difficult but even more so without any. Fuck! Sometimes it takes me 3 hours to fall asleep. For some reason, my brain becomes more active when I’m in the prone position. That’s not all, I need to sleep at least 8 hours because if I get less than that, I feel so groggy. This is really the pits. It’s past 12:30 am and I’m not even sleepy. I have to get up at 7:30 later to get ready for work. Great. So maybe I’m addicted to the goddamn sleeping pills but they really help. Mom said she won’t give me any more because she doesn’t want me to be like my stupid sister who kept on taking diet pills which caused her to be a nervous wreck. She’s not fat at all but she wanted to be like her stupid friends who were taking Zenadrine so she bought a new bottle when we confiscated the first one she bought. I know I should be sympathetic or consoling but I just think what she did was plain stupidity and her action keeps on ruining things. That’s the main reason why we had to go back to the Philippines early. And now even my slumber is affected.

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