bury me in this dress

I’ve been feeling depressed since last night. There were some triggers but I won’t discuss them here. I’ll just say that when I was about to sleep, I was thinking about my cat Aria. She was mad at me but it was only last night that she visited me again and rubbed against me. I miss her and I know I betrayed here when we got Vyolette. So I was thinking about that last night and how much I love Aria. Then I started crying. I got to thinking what if Aria dies? I would be so depressed. I love her very much. Also Vyolette. I don’t want them to die. Then I remembered that I read in a Pinoy forum about cremation and burial services for pets. I will definitely cremate them when they die so they will always be close to me.

Nuts.

I think I got to sleep very late because I was agitated. Perhaps it was already 3 am or 4.

I didn’t want to go to work when the maid woke me up this morning but I had some things to do so I went to work. I was very moody, depressed, irritable. I wasn’t nice to some of my clients. I felt really crummy so I decided to impulse buy.

A Canon Ixus 60. Bought it for P20,950. Installment basis for 12 months at 0% interest. Expensive but I like it and I can really use it.
After work, there was a family gathering. I had to go to mass but I didn’t pray.  I just sat there and thought about different things. Then we had dinner at the Fort. I began to relax and enjoyed my time with the relatives. Thank Goddess for them.

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