bury me in this dress

I had a minor panic attack last night. I don’t know how and why it happened but it was already late. Around 4 am when I finished re-watching Hana Yori Dango 2. I just suddenly began worrying about the future and then I started hyperventilating. I still feel so unsettled at the moment and I already took a tranquilizer.

The future…I realized I couldn’t face it head on. My blinders were removed last night and I saw a dismal future for me. I saw how selfish I was being and how unfair I am to my family and to everyone for that matter. But I couldn’t survive without the blinders. Reality is just too painful for me. I know I can’t keep on escaping but I don’t know what else to do. I’ll go crazy with the burden. So I said a quick prayer this morning, apologizing to the Gods and Goddesses because I need to be selfish again and put the blinders back.

7 Random Facts/Habits

I was tagged by Euri with this meme.

Instructions for this meme:

• Each player starts with 7 random facts/habits about himself/herself.
• People who are tagged need to explain the 7 random facts/habits about themselves in their blogs.
• Then in turn, they need to choose 7 people to tag and list their names at the end of their blogs.
• The player needs to visit their sites too and inform them (say, by leaving a comment) that they have been tagged and that they need to read your (the player’s) blog to find out more about it.

Here goes: