Bitter Bitch
I still feel depressed but I know it’s just because I’m bitter and sour graping about Bishie. I’m lucky when it comes to money, family, even friends sometimes. When it comes to romance, I’m a loser. I should feel blessed because I have it easy compared to most people but I do want some romance once in a while. I only had one boyfriend and that was almost 7 years ago. After that relationship, my love life went downhill. I could hardly even remember what it feels like to be in a relationship. I’m the one who dumped the guy so maybe what’s been happening to me is bad karma. The guy said I ruined his life. I doubt that I did because he had a lot of girlfriends after me. Feh…sometimes I think that I was a big slut in my past life and it’s my fate to be loveless this lifetime
Tags: bitter, depression, karma
December 20th, 2007 at 8:54 am
I’m not so lucky in the romance department either. And yes, I’ve also thought of it as karma for being bad in my earlier years. However, I’ve come to realize that it really isn’t karma at all; it just seems to be because I kept focusing on the bad things that happened to me and associating it with the bad things I did before. I think it’s merely unresolved guilt.
Don’t think of it as karma. You deserve better, but it’s just that you haven’t found the right kind of guy yet. Just keep on meeting people so the chances will be good that you’ll find him soon.
December 20th, 2007 at 9:01 pm
@Prudence
I don’t know what to make of my bad luck anymore. But thanks for the advice. I’m just trying to rationalize the trend of unrequited crushes.