Blame It On The Moody
I’m writing this entry in the hope of feeling better. I’ve been feeling depressed lately. Maybe it’s hormones or that my birthday is fast approaching. It could even be due to my biorhythm if it’s really true.
my biorhythm for today
Whatever the cause, I want to snap out of this and be cheerful again. I don’t want to drive away my friends. Believe me, nobody wants to be around depressed people. I think months before I would let myself wallow in misery but I want to believe that I have changed. At least in this aspect. I’m still me. Still a drifter, passionless, directionless, a disappointment to my mother but at least there are changes somehow.
Since I brought up my birthday, I don’t feel like celebrating it since I’m in this mood. Think about it, you shell out a lot of money to feed friends who are (hopefully) happy that you are a part of their lives, but during the celebration, you are thinking 101 ways to kill yourself. It would be better if it’s the other way around, friends spending on you because you are still alive. Unfortunately, it isn’t like that in the Philippines. Bah! I’m hoping that my gloomy mood will lift soon and I will feel like celebrating my birth date.
Tags: biorhythm, birthday, depression, hormones
I sure hope you feel better soon. I know we’re not real world friends but I for one am definitely glad that you’re here. I’ve never seen these biorythm thing before-that’s really cool….gotta check it out!
Kara´s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday
(HUGS) I have not celebrated in a very long time. for myself, i take a day away from everyone and keep it for myself.
I remember doing biorhythms a long time ago, but not looked at them since, maybe something to check out again.
Thanks so much, Kara :hug: I really appreciate your comment
Nethead,
But doesn’t it get lonely? Not celebrating with loved ones? There were times when I didn’t celebrate my birthday at all. They were truly depressing.
Hey, I’m really sorry you feel so depressed. I sincerely hope you hang in there. As for the birthday, if you don’t want to, don’t celebrate it. It’s your birthday. Maybe you want to call one or two of your real friends and ask him/her/them to take you out for dinner (it’s like that in Korea too about having to feed your friends). ((((hugs))))
Thanks, Yoonie! I really appreciate this :)