Good Goddess! It looks like a password protect machine passed by this blog. I even deleted some posts. But it’s no use if you google and look at the cached pages. Argh.

Still too scared to write to you-know-who. *Bites lower lip* Gaah

I just found out that this blog got reviewed by i talk too much and the review was a real delight. There were some good comments too. But after my previous post, they might rethink the high rating. Oh well. hehe

I got 5 smacks and they sure do like the word “cock”

Some nice comments

The review was a pleasant surprise. I remember submitting a link to this blog for review but I don’t remember if that’s the site. Whatever.

Ooooh I’m quite pleased right now. Maybe pleased isn’t supposed to be the P.C. feeling but that’s how I feel and I’m liking it. You see, I love the Philippine Macintosh Users Group (Philmug) because it really is an interesting community. Almost all of the members are very talented, some the top in their field, and they’re so smart and aware about the goings on in the country and the world. Well yeah I’m gushing but you get the idea. I haven’t met any member in person unless my classmates and instructor at PCCI are members. So I post in the forum occasionally and I get reprimanded by moderators sometimes but that’s over trivial issues. I don’t mind the scolding since I’m getting quite a bit of knowledge from the forums. Now why I am I pleased? It is because a philmug user started a blog about philmug. I don’t know who that blogger is but I really don’t care. I like the blog for its frankness. And being the drama queen that I am, I love the intrigue it has suddenly cast on the forum. Some of the members are against it but a lot do agree with his opinions. Hmmm okay, I am a bit curious as to who the author is.

It’s foolish to feel this excited about such happenings but I do love drama. It brings color to my mundane life.

I woke up an hour ago and couldn’t go back to sleep. I had another dream but it’s different this time. I dreamt that I was playing cards with a psychic girl, I think this was Lea, and while playing a simple card game, she got a message from the cosmos (?) and that message was for me. I remember her showing me 2 cards: a 7 and I think a 3. Then she said that the cards were telling her that there is a guy who likes me. There were more details but I kinda forgot what they are now. I think one of them is that the guy likes me for my English usage (what the fuck, right?!) and that he’s good in English too (???). Anyway, after she told me the message, we continued to play.

Fucking dreams!

I’ll sleep right after I post this.

I had a really hard time trying to sleep last night. In fact, I wasn’t able to sleep at all! I took 1/4 Rivotril. Didn’t work. Took 1 melatonin. Also didn’t work. Because of the fact that I really want to sleep but can’t, I had a minor anxiety attack so I took 1 Xanor from mom. It worked for the anxiety but still no sleep. So what did I do? I just went took a shower, got into the car, bought a large The Ultimate Mocha with an extra shot of espresso, bought Choco Chip Muffin for breakfast which I wasn’t able to eat since I was rushing for class, then started the class with a caffeine buzz. By 1:30 PM, my eyes were shot and I was having difficulties concentrating. At 3PM, the instructor (nice guy. Samaskomer. married) said that I was already burned out. Awww.But I presisted and finished the hands-on lessons.

Way to go, me! But I need to sleep now so no more burn out tomorrrow.

I am so upset right now. That’s why I was silent the whole day. But let me explain my technical problems. First, my mac would just suddenly reboot itself. It was very annoying but bearable but I couldn’t have that problem when I am already editing because my work wouldn’t get saved. So I tried to fix it by uninstalling some programs I installed earlier. Supposedly, it is easy to uninstall in Mac. You just click the application then drag it to the trash bin. But I read some advice in some forum that some erm…files are left in the hard drive and the person suggested to do a file search then delete the files related to the program you want to get rid of. Well I upgraded Quicktime and Itunes and I thought those programs caused the problem so I deleted them this way. Then erased the contents of the trashbin because the problem was still there. After a lot of forum posting to ask help with this problem and me eventually contacting the previous owner of the mac, I was able to solve it by manually cleaning the RAM/memory sticks. I was so happy when that problem disappeared and was ready to post about it here and all because I felt so macho doing such techy stuff. But, I tried opening some of the programs like Safari and Yahoo Messenger but they won’t open anymore. I think I deleted some crucial files when I uninstalled QT and Itunes. But during that time, I can still surf using firefox so I surfed around for solutions but found nothing except suggestions to install some mac utilities, most of which aren’t freeware. So I installed one program (forgot the name) then also installed Adium which is an instant messenger client, you know, since YM isn’t working anymore. Then while searching for solutions some more, Firefox crashed then the system froze. I rebooted the Mac but now there’s just a small OS X window and that’s all it does. The thing wouldn’t load anymore. I want to curse so much, especially toward the machine itself but it might act up even more. I am sometimes nicer to nonliving things. So now, I have an unusable powermac and I’m using this PC again. I took Xanor because I really need some calming up but I am still frigging agitated as well. Please, if you are knowledgable when it comes to Mac, please advice solutions. Now I am off to more troubleshooting search again.

I’m feeling restless right now. I was in hyperdrive earlier at my cousin’s birthday party. She’ll be leaving for US next year so she threw a grand party on this birthday. Gad! The place was packed with pubescent boys and girls who were very loud. Okay. I’m getting old but when I was 15, I didn’t have any social life. None at all. For me, gimmicks meant going to the mall with friends and this fucking happened so rarely like thrice in a school year. Fine, I was a total loser back then but I never heard anybody in my all-girl Catholic school throwing a party with DJ’s, catered food, professional lighting design, band set-up, fog machine, and all the works. And there’s booze involved too. Some of my cousin’s male friends have bands. There were two bands who performed actually. It was really awful. Even the sound engineer (YES! There was a sound engineer) couldn’t do anything to make the bands sound better. Cousin Paul was there and he’s like me (not into mainstream music and live an alternative lifestyle) so we sniggered the whole time while the teens shrieked to their hearts’ content. Maybe this kind of party is typical for America or Europe but not here in my third world country. By 10 PM, the place was spilling with drunken half-naked teenyboppers who could hardly walk after drinking a bottle of beer. And you know what it’s like when people are drunk, right? They get even louder. Add this to the party music being spinned. I don’t know what was going on inside my head of my uncle and aunt head when they decided to serve booze to the underage. I was a bit annoyed when some of the kids went outside and just hung out IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET. Mike, a friend of my cousin Fortune, said some of the teenage boys were smoking pot OUTSIDE. I am not against pot but egads, to do that in the middle of the street, in a well-to-do neighborhood, and the village guards just a few meters away. Totally insane! *shakes head* I should have taken pictures to post here but I during that time, it’s just a waste of effort and web space.