Mom and I tried to sing Janis Ian’s At Seventeen during last Saturday’s karaoke party but we couldn’t because we weren’t too familiar with the tune of the song. We recently discovered it while watching Entertainment Tonight when the singer was interviewed. A few days ago, I asked mom why she didn’t know that song since it was popular during her time. She answered that maybe she just didn’t notice it but added that most probably it’s because she couldn’t relate to that song since she was very popular and had many suitors back then. I wanted to give a smart retort but I couldn’t come up with anything so I just let it go. I like that song because I could relate to it so much.

When I was 17, I wasn’t popular with the boys. I wasn’t popular with the girls either. In school, I was pretty much a loner. I had a few friends but we couldn’t really spend much time with each other since it was a busy time, us being seniors after all. I felt so unloved during that time and I yearned for a boyfriend so much. Often I daydreamed that my crushes like me back and I would pretend that they always call me, send me presents and love letters, whisper sweet nothings, etc. I was still 17 when I was a college freshman and although I had more friends, my love life was still pretty much the same. Actually up to now but I’ve definitely moved on and don’t even think of that matter as a problem.

My experiences are so different from mom’s and my sister’s. Sometimes I wonder if they think there’s something wrong with me because I never lived the life they live. I bet they think that sometimes. Heck, there are times when I wonder about it myself. So up to now I can still relate to Janis Ian’s song although I don’t imagine or pretend that I have a boyfriend anymore.

I was finally able to watch The Prestige last night. I found it okay, entertaining, but not that great as some people opined. I was able to guess how the magicians did their tricks at once so the ending didn’t surprise me at all. I loved the all-star cast though. I was surprised that David Bowie (as Nicola Tesla) is in it. I liked the props and the costume design. I also liked their play on Tesla and Edison’s rivalry, echoing Angier and Boden’s obsession with outdoing each other.

I watched the film with my friend Phoebe. I chose the 10:45 PM showing at Greenbelt 3 and made reservations through sureseats. Ticket is expensive, 160 pesos, but cheaper compared to watching it abroad. We arrived in Greenbelt around 9PM so I had enough time to eat supper. I chose National Sports Grill since I’ve never eaten there. Good choice. I loved the San Francisco Burger with Sourdough Parmesan bread. Yum. The fries were really good too. I ate too much though. :frown: While I ate, Phoebe mostly read the Time magazines she bought. She ate at home already so she just picked on my fries. She isn’t into American food.

We were supposed to watch Cine Europa yesterday but I woke up very late. 5:15 PM to be exact. Yay me!

Tonight we will have a family dinner to celebrate mine and my sister’s birthdays. The relatives will be coming and I hope it will be fun. We decided to have it at Burgoo in Rockwell. I love their salmon and Seafood Caesar Salad. :yummy:

I’m at work but boss (mom) decided to let everyone go home early since it’s undas (All Saint’s Day) tomorrow and everyone wants to visit their dead relatives. My mom and her siblings visited the tomb of their parents last Saturday to avoid the crowd. I didn’t go. I just slept. I don’t know my dead relations since they died before I was born.

Aha! My day is ending well. Alright, it’s past 2 AM but that’s really just the way I am. I like night times.

When I got back from work, mother wasn’t angry anymore. It’s like her anger was an illusion. Still, I’m glad that she mellowed down. I love my mother but I just hate her unpredictability and her temper flares.

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I finally finished the lay-out of the theme. I can rest easy now. I’ve been obsessing on how to fix the glitches so while I was crapping in the bathroom, I came up with the solution. And it actually worked! Yahoo!

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I think I better sleep now. I’m kinda sleepy and I need to be alert in the morning. Bye for now.

What a crappy day! My mom went apeshit on me this morning. What happened was, I tried to weasel off coming to work this morning and texted her to ask permission if I can come in after lunch. She asked why so I told her the truth, that I want to sleep some more. I should have just lied but my brain wasn’t functioning and couldn’t come up with a more believable excuse. Anyway, the reason why I was so sleepy is because I watched Freaks and Geeks until 2:30 am and I think I got to sleep past 3. I didn’t tell her that of course.

Back to my story.

Mom texted back that I should go to work and that the driver will pick me up. I still slept for a bit though but by 10:30, I was ready to go to work. The driver still wasn’t there so I was just in my room and took a nap. Mom and the driver got back to the house around 12:30 and she was mad as hell. She said I should have gone to the office by myself instead of waiting for the driver. I was incredulous and reasoned back that she clearly said to me that the driver would fetch me so that’s why I waited. Well, if she’s in one of those moods, there’s really no reasoning with her. She went on and on, telling me that I’m undisciplined (true), irresponsible (true), unreliable (when it comes to work, yeah), have no respect for her (true only if she’s like this), etc etc. She said that I shouldn’t have asked her if I can come in after lunch since I already know that I should always come in early especially if she’s absent from work. I told her that I was ready to go to work by 10:30 and had no plans of becoming absent. That I was still in the house because she told me that the driver would get me. She kept on saying that I should have gone by myself though. Yadda yadda yadda. I became so frustrated that I began to cry which took me by surprise. It felt weird because while I was crying, I didn’t feel like I was but the tears just kept on pouring. It’s the first time I cried since I first started taking Efexor. Maybe it does weird things to me.

The water works pissed her off even more. My sister called her on the cellphone and, since mom’s gone batty, she kept yelling at her all the time. Poor sister. By that time, I decided that I had to get out of the house because I couldn’t stand her anymore. I took my work stuff fast and took the driver with me.

Man, I hate it when mother goes batshit crazy like this. I hope that by the time I come home, she’s back to normal.

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There’s too much drama in this entry so I’ll talk about Freaks and Geeks a bit. I totally loved it and I think the 2,000 plus Pesos I spent on the DVD is well worth it. I’m just disappointed that the show has only 18 episodes. I want to follow the characters more but that’s all I would get since it got cancelled after 1 season. I don’t know why but I think the people responsible for its cancellation should be stoned to death. Same goes for those who cancelled My So-Called Life. My favorite F & G characters are Nick and Sam.

I just got back from my health care provider to get the results of some tests I took a long time ago. The doctor consultant informed me the interpretation of the results. She said that I a small blockage in my heart, borderline thyroid problem, and urinary tract infection. Yikes! I thought my test results would be fine and that I’m in good health. I’m a bit alarmed about the blockage but, you know what, I’m thrilled at the same time. Sheesh! I’m so weird! Who would be thrilled with something like this?! I am and I think it brings drama to my mundane life. I’m also very stupid. I know.

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I got into big trouble with mom. I told the maid when she woke me up this morning that I have a headache and that I won’t go to work. It’s a lie! I stayed up all night watching Freaks and Geeks and got to sleep around 4 am. The maid wakes me up at 8 am during work days. So I stayed in bed but couldn’t go back to sleep but I was very groggy. 30 minutes later, mom told the maid to make me come downstairs because she wanted to talk to me. So I did. And she was very mad. She knew I was lying and she said that she’s tired of me making excuses not to go to work. She said either I go to work or I just resign because she would have none of my games. I’m at work right now.

Grrr. I’ve always had trouble falling asleep so I don’t understand why my mom got it into her brain that now that she stopped giving me sleeping aid, I will sleep earlier. Hell! Even with pills I still find it difficult but even more so without any. Fuck! Sometimes it takes me 3 hours to fall asleep. For some reason, my brain becomes more active when I’m in the prone position. That’s not all, I need to sleep at least 8 hours because if I get less than that, I feel so groggy. This is really the pits. It’s past 12:30 am and I’m not even sleepy. I have to get up at 7:30 later to get ready for work. Great. So maybe I’m addicted to the goddamn sleeping pills but they really help. Mom said she won’t give me any more because she doesn’t want me to be like my stupid sister who kept on taking diet pills which caused her to be a nervous wreck. She’s not fat at all but she wanted to be like her stupid friends who were taking Zenadrine so she bought a new bottle when we confiscated the first one she bought. I know I should be sympathetic or consoling but I just think what she did was plain stupidity and her action keeps on ruining things. That’s the main reason why we had to go back to the Philippines early. And now even my slumber is affected.

Oooh it’s my first day of work and I’m in the office right now. So far, my only duty is to observe. Quite boring actually but it’s okay. I shouldn’t complain since this is as easy as pie and I get paid for doing almost nothing. I can even go online using the laptop because of the unsecured wi-fi of the company beside us. I’m so lucky. I just hope I won’t get caught but I don’t think I will since they never changed their wireless router’s configuration. Hehehe.

Big boss aka mom will take me with her to a meeting this afternoon. She’s going to meet a client in a restaurant so that’s free grub for me. Yay.

I’m so bored right now so I will update you a bit about my travel. When we were in LA, we stayed with some family friends in Burbank. Old fuddy duddies but they’re really nice. Very hospitable but they hardly go out especially to LA proper. That meant that we hardly got out of Burbank as well. My aunt and uncle who lives here also joined us so we were all in this one house. I thought that would be nice but it was hell having my aunt and uncle there. They’re like headless chicken all the time and made all sorts of plans which mom and I didn’t really like. Like an overnight trip to Las Vegas. You can’t do Vegas overnight. You won’t be able to appreciate the place. Plus they didn’t want to make hotel reservations so when we got there, we spent hours just looking for a nice hotel. It was hell and the Vegas heat added to the effect. The highlight of that Vegas trip was the good finds at Primm’s outlet. I was able to buy some cheap Bath and Body products there. There was also this quick trip to Santa Barbara and Solvang. I enjoyed that very much especially Solvang. I loved the place and I want to visit again someday. I got so smitten with one of the waiters in a cafe there. Very handsome and had the loveliest eyes. *sigh* Here’s a stolen shot although he looks ugly in the picture.

I was able to borrow a car like a week and a half later, thanks to my aunt (the one in San Jose). She lent me her Expedition and eventhough it was a bit difficult to drive since I’m not used to driving vehicles that size, I couldn’t really complain cos she lent it for free. I didn’t have the nerve to drive outside Burbank and take freeways. Even driving inside the city is nerve-wracking. Anyway, mom and I would escape from my megalomaniac relatives by driving to malls. There we were able to finally relax eventhough it was pricey because we always went home with purchases.

The megalomaniacs left earlier with the owners of the house. They all went to Hawaii. We were supposed to go with them but my sister is this big hypochondriac and she wanted us to go home early. Instead of the 26th, we changed our return flight to the 21st. On the night of the 20th, we met up with my other aunt and uncle who just migrated there. It was sad and we were all crying in the end. I want them here in the Philippines but I’m just being selfish. Whatever. I wish them all the luck. Right now they really need it.

This update sucks, huh? Oh well. I was supposed to meet Mae but that didn’t happen. Sorry about that, Mae. Was also supposed to meet up with Neko in Hawaii but nothing I can really do about that although my sister was perfectly fine when we got back. Very annoying but I guess going back earlier is okay. I don’t want to be stuck with the megalomaniacs for 1 more week. I spent a lot during the trip, most of them charged to my credit cards. Argh. So in order to have money, I will start working for mom this July. I don’t know how much I spent in total. I just know I spent a lot.