Life is good to me. It’s just my damn depression that’s ruining it. I invited some people from the depression mailing list to go with me to Fontana on the 31st. That should be good except that only a few will be coming. That might be awkward.

It’s the weekend again. I feel lonely when I have no plans for the weekend. Or the only plans I have involve going out with my family or relatives. I want to hang out with friends but most are out of the country. *sigh* I feel like a loser.

Anyway, I got locked out of my multiply store so I created another one. It’s at mseerie.multiply.com in case you want to check it out.

I had a mystical night tonight. I was with Jenny, Eric, and Erwin at Metrowalk awhile ago and the couple (Jen and Eric) treated us to a nice dinner at Capisce. After dining, we headed over to the nearby Starbucks. On the way there, I noticed a tarot reading booth. I inquired how much a reading is since I haven’t done my reading for this year. It’s only 300 pesos so I said I wanted one.

Before the reading, I told Jen to remember everything the tarot reader said cos I easily forget. I also instructed Erwin to take photos during the reading so I could document it for this blog.

Jani was the tarot reader. I will just give the gist of the reading. He said that I over analyze everything. I have too much baggage and that’s causing me to not achieve my full potential. I’ve built a wall, a really thick wall, around myself to protect me from getting hurt but it’s causing me to distance myself from others. He’s an empath and he almost cried while he told me that. He told me to be at peace with myself, to forgive myself and others who have done me wrong in the past. I should unleash my passion so the water (creativity and happiness) would flow. He added that I should be patient and to decide what I really want to do in life because when I do that, I will not fail even if I encounter difficulties because I’m doing something I love.

As for my being materialistic, he said that I should give away something and not expect any karmic gains in return. Through that, I will learn about balance.

For my love life, Jani saw a man will be a part of my life this year. He will be from another land, smaller than me, younger than me. But I need to break my thick wall first because even if I make an effort to become more approachable, my subconscious rebels and sends out the message to the universe, telling the opposite sex to back off. Ugh.

As for the enemies I made in the past, he said that I should just let them go. I shouldn’t worry about them. He said that the situation is very emotional at the moment but someday, it will be resolved.

With regards to my career, he said I should find what I really want to do and that should be something I will love even if there are difficulties. I would be successful and he said I would have a partner, a male partner. He could possibly be the guy from my “love life” question or somebody else.

I didn’t ask this one but he asked me why I didn’t want to have my own family. I said that I didn’t want children. He proclaimed though that I will find happiness in children. Plural, not singular. I will have kids daw. Oh my!

He said that only I have the power make all this possible and I’m the fairy godmother who can grant my own wishes. So for it to materialize, it is in my hands. I should start from the core and be at peace with myself, follow my bliss and stand by it, but I shouldn’t worry because according to the cards, if I really want it truly, madly, passionately I will never fail.

He gave me a red envelope (ampaw) before I left. He told me to keep it in my wallet and not to open it. I should only open it when it’s an emergency. Hmmm. I wonder what’s inside it. I think the gesture is sweet though. All these for only 300 pesos! What a steal!

These are Krystal’s xmas gifts for me and I love them all! Super thanks. I didn’t expect that you would send so much

I was supposed to go out with my friends last night but a sudden emergency made Phoebe unavailable so I had to postpone the birthday gathering. It’s okay since I had to finish the ad lay-out my cousin commissioned me to do for him. The pay isn’t much but it’s easy work so I’m not complaining. Since my mac is in the office, I had to do my graphics there. I arrived around 5 PM and I think I finished the lay-out by 7 or earlier. By that time, I received Phoebe’s message so when my cousin said he wanted to see the work, I told him to go to the office to check it. We revised it several times but he liked the final outcome. We finished past 8 PM and we were famished. We decided to go to Podium Mall and eat at Burgoo. I suggested that we go to Chili’s or National Sports Grill but my cousin complained that those were too far.

In Podium, I window shopped for a while. I went to Dexter shoes and found an extra wide loafers I could wear to work. Problem is, it costs 5,800 pesos. Too much! I’ll think about it though. After window shopping, we headed to Burgoo. We got the Seafood Caesar Salad, the Salmon in Spinach and Cream sauce (mine), and the Oklahoma Ribs (my cousin’s). I liked my food but my cousin’s steak wasn’t tender. I told him to complain but he said it’s okay. He didn’t want to ruin his good mood. His friend Mike joined us and ate his leftovers. Mike has a new cellphone with wifi. It’s a nokia but I don’t know what it’s called. It’s interesting for me because of the wifi but it doesn’t have a camera. He got it for cheap though. He said he could get me one for the same price but I’m not really interested. I have other things I need and they’re more important. Besides, I already love my phone. My cousin wanted dessert so he ordered mud pie. It was good and it was gone in an instant. Mike had to return to his work (he works in Podium) so cousin and I decided to leave. He dropped me off at the office since I left the car there.

:biggrin: I finally received Mike’s birthday present and I love it! He told me last month that he’s sending over something from my amazon wish list but he wouldn’t say what it is. Well it turns out that he sent me Francesca Lia Block’s “Necklace of Kisses” as well as a postcard of Ireland and a cute greeting card. I’ll try to scan them tomorrow at the office. I can’t wait to read the book! Thanks so much, Mike. That’s so sweet of you :heart:

I was finally able to watch The Prestige last night. I found it okay, entertaining, but not that great as some people opined. I was able to guess how the magicians did their tricks at once so the ending didn’t surprise me at all. I loved the all-star cast though. I was surprised that David Bowie (as Nicola Tesla) is in it. I liked the props and the costume design. I also liked their play on Tesla and Edison’s rivalry, echoing Angier and Boden’s obsession with outdoing each other.

I watched the film with my friend Phoebe. I chose the 10:45 PM showing at Greenbelt 3 and made reservations through sureseats. Ticket is expensive, 160 pesos, but cheaper compared to watching it abroad. We arrived in Greenbelt around 9PM so I had enough time to eat supper. I chose National Sports Grill since I’ve never eaten there. Good choice. I loved the San Francisco Burger with Sourdough Parmesan bread. Yum. The fries were really good too. I ate too much though. :frown: While I ate, Phoebe mostly read the Time magazines she bought. She ate at home already so she just picked on my fries. She isn’t into American food.

We were supposed to watch Cine Europa yesterday but I woke up very late. 5:15 PM to be exact. Yay me!

Tonight we will have a family dinner to celebrate mine and my sister’s birthdays. The relatives will be coming and I hope it will be fun. We decided to have it at Burgoo in Rockwell. I love their salmon and Seafood Caesar Salad. :yummy:

Just a follow up on the Gaiman signing. These pics were emailed to me by Carmille.

There’s nothing new about this but again, i fucked up my sleeping habit. it’s by choice this time because the other night when I was feeling awful, I didn’t want to sleep early. So there. I’m just saying this to avoid confusion because if I say “today I went out with so and so” and people see the time I posted is 3am, that would seem quite odd.

Today I went out of the house. The first time for this week.

Just writing those two sentences make me want to crawl under a rock. But I kind of made up for the hermetic life since I went out twice. The first was with my cousin. He went over for some graphic commission and he treated me to a scrumptious dinner as gratitude. I also bought Gonuts Donuts which I was craving. My cousin is a bad influence since he’s always going on and on about them. FYI, Gonuts Donuts is Philippines’ equivalent to Krispy Kreme. Going back to the story, we shopped around a bit with my cousin doing most of the shopping. He ended up buying a jeans and shoes while I ended up buying a Harry Potter book. The 4th installment. A lot of blogs are raving about the latest release and here I am, just starting on The Goblets of Fire. So yes, I bought that book which is a bit hard for me because I have really little money these days. But I really needed to stimulate my mind because earlier, I couldn’t even remember the spelling of “dinosaur”. How pathetic is that?

My second step out of the house was with Louie. She went here for some dorama-related problems then we chatted for awhile. During our conversation, she mentioned that Fruits in Ice Cream’s ‘Pastillas de Leche’ is really good and she wants me to try it. I guess she became obsessed with me trying it that she invited me to go to her place to taste it. So off we went to her place and I ended up eating quite a lot of ice cream. Of course this means that flavor is really good. We chatted some more there but it was getting late. She dropped me off to my house around 2am I think. Maybe even later.

So that’s how my day went. It is now almost 7am and my day is just ending. I’ve read a few pages of the book and I believe that my brain is functioning again. I think it’s quite evident in this entry.