bury me in this dress

I am still awake. I am a person with no self control. Arghhhhh! My blog is going haywire and I don’t know what to do. I tried manually upgrading it through FTP and now Fantastico says it that from now on, I have to upgrade manually everytime. I think that sucks because upgrading manually takes a lot of time and bandwidth. So I tried removing wordpress through Fantastico but somehow I cannot remove the damn blog. It is here to haunt me! If I was able to remove it and lose all data, that will blow but starting from scratch isn’t THAT bad. Fuck you, blog! I hate you and all your fucked up coding and mysql errors. If you were a house, I would burn you down.

I just got back from the gym. I haven’t been there for ages and I didn’t really feel like coming there today…but I did. Anyway, there was this trainer there who suddenly appeared in front of me while I was working out. She started talking to me and I really really didn’t feel like talking to anybody. So I answered her questions with few a words as possible and didn’t turn off my ipod. She didn’t get the hint at all! She kept on following me and talking to me that it made me lose concentration. I even bumped my head on a machine because of her incessant talking. Grrr. She said that she’ll give me a free training on Wednesday but I doubt that I will show up. I miss my old trainer who knew when to shut up. Too bad she quit and never returned the book I lent her.

Yay! I’m working on my sleeping habits. I slept all night so I could wake up in the morning. I woke up at 3am which is fine because it’s still quiet and nice. I guess I should always sleep around 9pm so I could get up that early. I can do this!

I was just watching episode 1 of Pride. It’s a new Japanese drama starring Takuya Kimura. I’m very impressed with the typesetting. Especially with the fansubber credits and the karaoke. I loved the effects that I didn’t notice the dorama itself but just kept on watching the credits run. The fansubbing was done by Japan-TV and I’m proud to say that I’m a staff. I use the alias “stargirl” there. So far, I’ve worked on Long Vacation, Meteor Garden, Monkey King, Bus Stop, and the current one is Boku dake no Madonna. Mostly I do editing and quality check which are very easy tasks but I love doing it.

Hmm. My computer is about to crash. Better restart.

I really want one. Can even be any good laptop, not just powerbook. I don’t have my own computer. I share this with my sister. But a powerbook is so powerful. Duh. But I can do so much with a powerbook. I took up filmmaking and with this, I can make digital movies and edit them with this. But dammit! It’s just so expensive. Hay. I wish I were loaded.
see more progress on: get an apple powerbook

Yesterday was a very productive day. I spent quality time with the family, made those firefox plugins, and went to our carwash to see how the business is doing. Yes, that’s productive in my book since I’ve been such a sloth lately. Like today, for instance. I did nothing at all except surf around the net. Bugger. I actually had plans to go out with Louie but I had a hard time sleeping last night that I felt weak when I woke up. I guess it’s because of the Iced Coffee I drank while watching the movie. I had to postpone my plans with Louie and good thing she understood.

I made my sister upload the following photos I took with my camera phone. I have a nokia 3660 (I think. Not a fan of Nokia) and it doesn’t have a cable connection for the PC and my crappy computer doesn’t have USB. So I sent these pictures to her phone via bluetooth and since she owns a P910i, she can upload files via USB. Damn! I have a crappy phone.

This is my cat Aria (white) louging with my cousin’s (the black one)

Aria and Ampon with their kittens

I had another white cat but he suddenly disappeared. I don’t know if he got catnapped or died. It’s quite sad cos I’m very fond of my cat Luna.

In other boring news, I added a bunch of buttons and other blog playthings again. I love that Blog Ecosystem thingy. This blog barely gets traffic so I’m an insignificant microbe! Cool!

I just got back from watching Batman Begins. So what’s my opinion on it? Well, it’s okay. Quite disappointing because the story has so much potential but some parts of the movie just didn’t work well. Some elements were quite confusing. The director could have banked on how Bruce Wayne and Lucius Fox worked on each of Batman’s weapons and gadgets. An example is the sonar device for the bats? I was thinking ‘where the hell did that come from?’ when the bats suddenly appeared. I also think Ducard lacked motivation for destroying cities. The thing I found appealing about the film is the appearance of Dr. Crane simply because he looks like a dreamboat. He’s so pretty but I got unnerved with his eyes. Can eyes be THAT pale blue? He was ugly in 28 Days Later so what happened? Did he get plastic surgery or something? But I digress. Batman Begins is a film with a lot of potential which the director wasted. I don’t know what he intends to do with the sequals but he better get his act straight cos the film bombed in the Philippines and I believe bombed in other countries as well.

androgynous dreamboat Cillian Murphy as Dr. Crane

I just found out that google released a cool new app called Google Earth which lets users access satellite imagery of specific places around the world. As of the moment, the download is temporarily down so I couldn’t download it yet. I hope it works in this crappy computer. I don’t think their images of the Philippines will be detailed but I still want a satellite view of my address. I hope that’s possible. Here’s a sample of what it can do.

I guess it’s another nocturnal marathon for me. I don’t know…I keep on telling myself that I should sleep in the “proper” time but 80% of me resists it. I just don’t like sleeping during night time. Heck, I don’t like sleeping at all. Night is perfect for me. I like the stillness and the lower temperature. Nobody is awake to bother me except other nocturnal beings. My net connection is also faster. Problem is, I need to have a normal sleeping pattern in order to function in the real world. I took a job with a graveyard shift before but it totally sucked because I prefer to be home during these hours. There were other problems with that job of course but that’s just one thing. A 9 to 5 job is a drag but at least I could interact with other people during that time. It’s a good thing that I’m on “indefinite leave” from work because I don’t know how I could stay awake in that boring 9 to 5 job (10 to 6 actually).

I can’t wait for the movie version of Rent. I really love that musical. I was able to watch it a couple of years ago when it was staged in the Philippines and it was so fantastic. Of course, the cast weren’t the original ones but the Filipino actors were good. I wish someone would stage that play here again. I will surely watch it.

I can’t wait for the next Tim Burton animation Corpse Bride. I love his works and I’m 99% sure that this movie will be really good. I also can’t wait to see his version of Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. The original version is great and I hope Mr. Burton’s version will do justice to the story. It will be doubly good since Johnny Depp will be in both films. Yay!

In other news…

I started my formal sessions with a psychotherapist this afternoon. I think the doctor is good. He seems very insightful and what I like about him is his wholistic approach. There will be art, dancing, medition, etc. which will accompany the therapy sessions. What I don’t like about it so far is the expense. It costs P1,500 a session which is 3 times the amount I pay for my former psychiatrist. So far, I think it’s worth it because the old doctors just prescribed me drugs and didn’t bother with my actual life. But I guess only time will tell if the sessions are doing me any good.