bury me in this dress

The last balikbayan box has arrived. Yay! I’m reunited with my makeup and my cellphone charger. Most of the stuff in the box are mine. Old and new clothes, shoes, the makeup, charger, books, etc. Also in the box is the nice Espressivo lamp I bought from Ikea. Maybe it’s stupidity but I plugged the lamp in a 220 volt outlet. I was perfectly aware that electronics and appliances in the US use 110 volt mostly. I read the literature included in the package and no mention of 110 or 220 there. Nothing in the box either. So I took a chance and plugged the damn thing, hoping that it will work and not bust the bulb. Well the bulb is busted now and I need a replacement 20v Halogen bulb for it. Damnit! I should have bought spare bulbs in Ikea. Or better yet, Ikea should open a store in this third world country!

Maybe there’s a kind and generous reader out there who is willing to get some bulbs for me? I still have paypal but there’s no money in my bank account. In fact, I owe Bank of America a little more than $100. I’m trying to get my aunt to deposit $200 in my account since she lives in the US. I’m digressing already. So anyway, please I want to get the lamp working. I hope somebody will help me with this nuisance. I would be so grateful!!!

I’ve been feeling “senti” lately. By that I mean I miss being in a romantic relationship. Maybe it’s just my hormones acting up but I find myself getting wistful sometimes. I don’t like the feeling but what can I do, right? It’s just been too long since I had any hookups or anything remotely romantic. Haaay buhay! Damnit! I want companionship, affection, public displays of affection, and all that shit. I SUCK when it comes to matters of the heart and guys I like aren’t attracted to me. The ones who gravitate toward me are yucky. Like this guy on the floor where I work in. He keeps on smiling at me. I’m not exactly sure if he likes me likes me. He was leering at me last week and I thought he mistook me for somebody else but it happened again this afternoon. Okay, not really leering but more of smiling. Still, scary guy. How do I go about attracting the guys I actually like without changing myself much? I need tips so comment on this especially those in a relationship. Or better yet, find me a rich and handsome boyfriend. Hehe

Fuck! I’m agitated today. I don’t really know what I’m feeling but I guess it’s a mixture of anger, guilt, and feeling really rotten. I just feel like this big loser for some reason. I also didn’t go to work today because I lack sleep. I feel guilty for that but what can I do? I really have a hard time sleeping but mom won’t understand that. So I hate myself right now.

I caught Rockstar:Supernova while channel-surfing for something good to watch and was totally blown away with Dilana’s performance. She’s fucking amazing! She covered Nirvana’s Lithium and eventhough she just stood still throughout most of the song, she was so intense that it didn’t matter. I’m so totally rooting for her even if I couldn’t vote for her cos the show is broadcast live at 8:30 am and I could only watch the replays. I love her and I hope she wins.

Today was so boring at work. Ugh. I didn’t do anything except email something for mom. That’s it. It’s easy money, yeah, but I want more action. Just looking at other people as they do their work is a bit depressing. It’s also embarrassing and makes me wonder what the others think of me.

This will be quick. The laptop and my ipod are now here so yay! Unfortunately, my makeups are in the balikbayan box so I will get those next month. I would have to use the crappy makeup I left here.

I thought something was wrong with the mac’s USB ports but it turns out that it was only the mouse that was causing the problem. So I bought a new mouse for this and I’m back to the mac. Yay! Will update more tomorrow because updating my gallery with photos I took from the US made me sleepy. Why don’t you check it out in the meantime.

Fuck! Still can’t use the mac and I don’t really like using this particular PC. Anyways, it will take a while before I can get it fixed because I’m broke. Usual story. Whatever. I miss my mac.

something’s wrong with my mac. my keyboard and mouse aren’t working anymore so i’m back to using the PC until I get that fixed. fucking technical difficulties. i hope having the mac fixed wouldn’t cost me much. my credit cards are loaded with debt from the trip.

bad luck is following us. we left my handcarry bag in our family friend’s car and i don’t know when we’ll get it. i placed all my makeup there as well as our new laptop. so double fuck it.

I’m back in good ol’ Pinas. I arrived last June 22 but was too lazy to go online. I need to do a lot of updating here but I have to fix some database errors first. I don’t know what happened so I have to contact my webhost’s tech support. Anyway, I will also post pictures later on.