I’m at work but boss (mom) decided to let everyone go home early since it’s undas (All Saint’s Day) tomorrow and everyone wants to visit their dead relatives. My mom and her siblings visited the tomb of their parents last Saturday to avoid the crowd. I didn’t go. I just slept. I don’t know my dead relations since they died before I was born.

What a crappy day! My mom went apeshit on me this morning. What happened was, I tried to weasel off coming to work this morning and texted her to ask permission if I can come in after lunch. She asked why so I told her the truth, that I want to sleep some more. I should have just lied but my brain wasn’t functioning and couldn’t come up with a more believable excuse. Anyway, the reason why I was so sleepy is because I watched Freaks and Geeks until 2:30 am and I think I got to sleep past 3. I didn’t tell her that of course.

Back to my story.

Mom texted back that I should go to work and that the driver will pick me up. I still slept for a bit though but by 10:30, I was ready to go to work. The driver still wasn’t there so I was just in my room and took a nap. Mom and the driver got back to the house around 12:30 and she was mad as hell. She said I should have gone to the office by myself instead of waiting for the driver. I was incredulous and reasoned back that she clearly said to me that the driver would fetch me so that’s why I waited. Well, if she’s in one of those moods, there’s really no reasoning with her. She went on and on, telling me that I’m undisciplined (true), irresponsible (true), unreliable (when it comes to work, yeah), have no respect for her (true only if she’s like this), etc etc. She said that I shouldn’t have asked her if I can come in after lunch since I already know that I should always come in early especially if she’s absent from work. I told her that I was ready to go to work by 10:30 and had no plans of becoming absent. That I was still in the house because she told me that the driver would get me. She kept on saying that I should have gone by myself though. Yadda yadda yadda. I became so frustrated that I began to cry which took me by surprise. It felt weird because while I was crying, I didn’t feel like I was but the tears just kept on pouring. It’s the first time I cried since I first started taking Efexor. Maybe it does weird things to me.

The water works pissed her off even more. My sister called her on the cellphone and, since mom’s gone batty, she kept yelling at her all the time. Poor sister. By that time, I decided that I had to get out of the house because I couldn’t stand her anymore. I took my work stuff fast and took the driver with me.

Man, I hate it when mother goes batshit crazy like this. I hope that by the time I come home, she’s back to normal.

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There’s too much drama in this entry so I’ll talk about Freaks and Geeks a bit. I totally loved it and I think the 2,000 plus Pesos I spent on the DVD is well worth it. I’m just disappointed that the show has only 18 episodes. I want to follow the characters more but that’s all I would get since it got cancelled after 1 season. I don’t know why but I think the people responsible for its cancellation should be stoned to death. Same goes for those who cancelled My So-Called Life. My favorite F & G characters are Nick and Sam.

I just got back from my health care provider to get the results of some tests I took a long time ago. The doctor consultant informed me the interpretation of the results. She said that I a small blockage in my heart, borderline thyroid problem, and urinary tract infection. Yikes! I thought my test results would be fine and that I’m in good health. I’m a bit alarmed about the blockage but, you know what, I’m thrilled at the same time. Sheesh! I’m so weird! Who would be thrilled with something like this?! I am and I think it brings drama to my mundane life. I’m also very stupid. I know.

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I got into big trouble with mom. I told the maid when she woke me up this morning that I have a headache and that I won’t go to work. It’s a lie! I stayed up all night watching Freaks and Geeks and got to sleep around 4 am. The maid wakes me up at 8 am during work days. So I stayed in bed but couldn’t go back to sleep but I was very groggy. 30 minutes later, mom told the maid to make me come downstairs because she wanted to talk to me. So I did. And she was very mad. She knew I was lying and she said that she’s tired of me making excuses not to go to work. She said either I go to work or I just resign because she would have none of my games. I’m at work right now.

Mom/Boss gave me a list of my duties and responsibilities in the company yesterday and I’m a bit disappointed with what she came up with. Based on the list, I’m the company techy so I’m in charge of the upkeep of computers, internet, etc. I’m also in charge of imaging which basically entails doing the graphics and web design as well as marketing and promo materials. Lastly, she put me in charge of seeking out more cost-effective ways in operating the business. I’m already doing all of the above and she likes my work but I thought I was supposed to learn how to run the business. Maybe she knows better but I don’t think my current duties and responsibilities are paving the way for me to become a good businesswoman. I thought that my training would be more on the managing side, learning about accounting, entrepreneurship, etc. Maybe I’ll be tasked that someday but right now, I’m the company geek. Don’t get me wrong, I like what I’m doing. Heck! Our company now has broadband and is using a router now so several computers can connect to the net at the same time. Used to be we only had a crappy dial-up ISP and it was costing us around P3000 a month. So I was able to lessen company expenses and I get to be online at work. It’s a win-win situation. But again, I don’t think this is a training in running a business.

God! I’m so exhausted. I guess this is burnout due to work. I’m not complaining about work. I like what I’m doing and the projects I started. I’m feeling the blues today because of my burn-out. I don’t have the stamina.

I couldn’t bring the laptop to work because my sister needed it for some class project in college. Bad news for me because she said that she needs the laptop tomorrow until Monday next week. So I’ll be computer-less during the duration of my sister’s project. Damn! I want my own laptop. Sadly, I couldn’t afford one. At least, not yet.

So much to do and I need this damn laptop for work! There’s nothing I can do about it because it’s not mine! :angry:

Damn! I’m almost broke again. I spent most of my salary trying to pay my credit card bills. I also bought some CDs (Strawberry Switchblade, B-Movie, and Regina Spektor’s Begin to Hope) and a DVD (my favorite, Heartburn) Sunday night at the Podium. We were at that mall because it was my cousin Paul’s birthday treat for us. We ate good food at Burgoo. After that, we had desserts at Goodies and Sweets. Oh I digressed again.

I’m already working but money is still elusive to me. I forgot when the next salary will be released. I hope it’s this week. I really need cash.

A cutie geek just left the office. Yes, that’s right. Cute and geek. I’m planning to network the computers in this office so I’ve been calling several contractors to see if they can come up with plans to suit my budget. Well one company sent two techy guys to inspect our office and I had an instant crush on one of them. He has gorgeous eyes! I can’t help but become a bit self-conscious the whole time I was talking to them. I hope they come up with a good quotation for me so that I will choose them and he’ll come back here to install stuff. Heh.

Good Goddess! Work is eating up a lot of my energy. I’m so frigging tired. I just got back from a seminar which stunk. The speaker is an American and his examples and scenarios are American and not apt for work scenarios in the Philippines. Good thing the seminar fee is cheap. There’s a part two tomorrow but I won’t attend anymore. It’s just a big waste of time.

I have a 6-day work week. Compared to what I was doing before I started working for the family company (absolutely nothing), this is a big step. A very tiring, mile-long step. So no wonder I’m exhausted most of the time. Good thing I’m enjoying what I’m doing now. I just hope I wouldn’t have a depression spell again.

I’ve been really busy lately that’s why I haven’t been blogging. Anyway, I was able to get some rest today because I worked from home. I’m redesigning the company stationery and calling card. So far so good but I still have a lot to do. Then tomorrow there’s a seminar at work so I have to be there. I have to QC Hana Yori Dango for Jtv-drama. Yes, that’s a dorama. I don’t know when I’ll be able to squeeze that in. So many things to do for next week as well. Surprisingly, I like working for our company. It’s very challenging.