I just got back from watching Batman Begins. So what’s my opinion on it? Well, it’s okay. Quite disappointing because the story has so much potential but some parts of the movie just didn’t work well. Some elements were quite confusing. The director could have banked on how Bruce Wayne and Lucius Fox worked on each of Batman’s weapons and gadgets. An example is the sonar device for the bats? I was thinking ‘where the hell did that come from?’ when the bats suddenly appeared. I also think Ducard lacked motivation for destroying cities. The thing I found appealing about the film is the appearance of Dr. Crane simply because he looks like a dreamboat. He’s so pretty but I got unnerved with his eyes. Can eyes be THAT pale blue? He was ugly in 28 Days Later so what happened? Did he get plastic surgery or something? But I digress. Batman Begins is a film with a lot of potential which the director wasted. I don’t know what he intends to do with the sequals but he better get his act straight cos the film bombed in the Philippines and I believe bombed in other countries as well.

androgynous dreamboat Cillian Murphy as Dr. Crane

I just found out that google released a cool new app called Google Earth which lets users access satellite imagery of specific places around the world. As of the moment, the download is temporarily down so I couldn’t download it yet. I hope it works in this crappy computer. I don’t think their images of the Philippines will be detailed but I still want a satellite view of my address. I hope that’s possible. Here’s a sample of what it can do.

I guess it’s another nocturnal marathon for me. I don’t know…I keep on telling myself that I should sleep in the “proper” time but 80% of me resists it. I just don’t like sleeping during night time. Heck, I don’t like sleeping at all. Night is perfect for me. I like the stillness and the lower temperature. Nobody is awake to bother me except other nocturnal beings. My net connection is also faster. Problem is, I need to have a normal sleeping pattern in order to function in the real world. I took a job with a graveyard shift before but it totally sucked because I prefer to be home during these hours. There were other problems with that job of course but that’s just one thing. A 9 to 5 job is a drag but at least I could interact with other people during that time. It’s a good thing that I’m on “indefinite leave” from work because I don’t know how I could stay awake in that boring 9 to 5 job (10 to 6 actually).

I just finished watching Shimotsuma Monogatari (Kamikaze Girls). It’s a movie about a loner who is into Gothic Lolita clothes who befriends a tough biker girl. I found it very amusing at first because of the lovely visuals but I became bored during the second half. I really liked the clothes though. So kawaii but if you wear those here, you’ll certainly be stared and mocked at. I had a Loli dress custom made for me but I don’t have the guts to wear it yet. I also don’t have the right shoes to go with it. It’s cotton candy pink and really frilly. I can probably wear that with white mary janes (which I don’t have) or cotton candy pink flats (which I also don’t have). Anyway, here’s some photos from the movie.

Damn. ‘Orange Days’ is showing on JetTV right now. It’s a Japanese dorama and it looks really interesting. But I don’t understand Japanese and the subtitle is in Chinese which I don’t understand either. Bummer. So much dorama on the cable but none which I can understand!

I am addicted to masamania. the site really shows the true Japan through the eyes of a Tokyo-ite. it’s sort of refreshing since most of the Japanese blogs I’ve seen offer Japan through rose-tinted lenses. Masa also takes really good photographs which are pleasing to see.

Hah! This is a fun game I saw from guttervomit’s website. Actually it was in his links. Anyway, it’s a flash game called Call Center Charlie which is perfect for the Filipino youth who are being herded into the call center market. I personally wouldn’t apply for a call center job because I find it boring, mind numbing, and a waste of my talents (ehem). The pay is great. Better than my editing jobs even. However, I think it’s a dead end job. But kudos to those who are in (or want to be) in that business. Maybe I would get into it if everything fails…but I doubt it. More likely I would start a call center company of my own if I win the lotto or similar. Enough of this. The game is located here.

boing boing featured a site about how the ratio of iTunes purchase is 21 to an iPOD. The site posed a rhetorical question “where does all the music come from?” Oh come on! Think! Ipod owners have CD collections. I for one have hundreds of CDs which I painstakenly convert to MP3s just to transfer them to my Pod. As of this time, I have barely converted 1/3 of my collection. I live Downhill Battle’s mission but their site fails to account the existing music collection of iPOD owners.

You know you’re having a low day when you cry while eating. Well that happened to me today. my aunt and uncle celebrated their wedding anniversary by treating us to a nice Italian restaurant in Edsa Shangri-la hotel. Everything was fine at first but the discussion suddenly turned to me and my cousin’s carwash business. The oldies suddenly went all huffy because “only my cousin is minding the business”. I have to admit that he does most of the work but I help. Sometimes. Anyway, I became upset and cried silently while they blabbed all throughout dinner. I just felt such a big failure. I know I am. But I find everything too hard these days. Coping is too hard. Even living is too hard sometimes. My therapist said I should do things according to MY standards, not theirs. But I still feel like a failure and I also feel so guilty. They are not aware of my present condition…well I don’t think my mom let them on. I just feel so heavy and I am so ugly and I hate everything. I just want to cut myself again!@! Fuck!

I had my medicine changed. The therapist prescribed fluoxetine, that’s the generic name of Prozac. I told him before that I don’t think Prozac works on me but he said I might be underdosaged. So he said he’ll try this again but with a higher dosage. I told him Prozac is expensive but he told me there’s another alternative in the market which is cheaper. He forgot the brand though. Sheesh. Anyway, mom went to the drugstore looking for the other brand but even Mercury (the leading drug store here) is not aware of it. She was complaining that Prozac is too expensive and wants me to just take 1 a day. I might have to make her talk to my therapist since she clearly doesn’t understand the NEED to take larger amounts. This is so annoying.

I need money. The carwash business is a big flop. I get zero peso from it. Mom still gives me money even though I don’t go to work anymore but somehow I couldn’t seem to pay off my credit card debt. The interest rate just keeps on building up and it’s making me crazy. I don’t think I could ever pay it off. Maybe I can if I withdraw all of my savings from the bank which is quite small to begin with. But I don’t know if that would work since my BPI card is tied up with it. I got my first credit card (the BPI one) approved because I have some savings in their bank so they might freeze the card if I withdraw everything. Gad, I don’t need this problem! I wish I have the life of my cousins since their parents pay all their credit card and other bills. I know that’s insane but I find that very ideal right now. They never have money problems! It’s so unfair.

I’ll shut up now. I’m working myself up again.

This blog sucks!